It it easy to perform when you're motivated, but what about when you're not? Ep 80

Eric Thomas the Hip Hop Preacher text me a message talking about motivation and discipline.  What happens when you're no longer motivated to do something?  What do you do when you "don't feel like doing it today?"  His answer, "you will never be able to always be motivated therefore, you must rely on discipline.  When motivation fails you, your discipline kicks in." Discipline is something that's been missing from my life for a while.  I tend to subconsciously think I shouldn't have to be disciplined anymore because "I've been there and done that."  When I think back to the first 10 yrs of my recovery, I was extremely disciplined.  Everything was about routine, staying sober, and maintaining a sense of gratitude and service to others.  As I started to get more life experience by trying new things and getting up in years sober, I started to selfishly and childishly say to myself, "I'm tired of being responsible, I'm tired of abstaining from all the risky behaviors and I don't want to do the right thing all the time anymore."  Now, let's be clear, I didn't tell anyone this specifically.  I actually didn't even know it was happening.  It was hiding in my sub-conscience.   Hence, a long run of spiritual disconnection.   Don't get me wrong, I still did a number of things for my recovery and spiritual journey.  However, it wasn't as disciplined as I was in the early years.   This also may have something to do with why it can be tougher to stay on the path of serenity that long you stay clean and sober.  People have asked a number of times over the years, "you've been sober for so long, why do you still go to those meetings?"  Well, this is why... left to my own devices I will back myself so far into a corner that the only way out is to USE... and oh can I use a number of things that have nothing to do with drugs and alcohol! Check out one of my favorite people, Eric Thomas the Hip Hop Preacher, and text him at 313-251-1181. Youtube @etthehiphoppreacher Instagram @etthehiphoppreacher Website https://etinspires.com/home