Jess Is Pregnant! The Full Story: Miscarriage, Sertraline and a Very Positive Pregnancy Test

There’s a third person in the room in this episode with Kat and Jess… Jess is pregnant! In this episode, Jess and Kat talk about baby number two and share the full journey of how they got here. This is the conversation Jess says she has dreamt of recording, and it's everything. Honest, emotional, funny, and deeply real.Jess takes us back to the beginning. After a two-year journey to fall pregnant with Marla, a loss along the way, and a more recent miscarriage that hit harder than she expected, Jess and Todd made the call to take six months away from trying. She opens up about what it's like to try for a baby when you're already living with a panic disorder, the internal conversations around medication, the question of whether it was irresponsible to grow a family when she wasn't in her best space, and the fear that the panic disorder might never fully end.She talks candidly about going on sertraline, the two years she resisted medication because pregnancy was on the horizon, and the guilt of knowing the research said it was safe while still carrying a quiet doubt in the back of her mind. The decision that finally shifted things: realising she wasn't able to enjoy the life she'd worked so hard to build, and that a healthy mum was the most important thing she could give her family.Then there's the trying-to-conceive reality, the scheduling, the long cycles, the months of negative tests, the switch that flips when you've had a loss and every negative brings it all back. The moment Todd came down with man flu on what turned out to be their last window for a 2026 baby. The password on Jess's laptop. The morning she snuck into the bathroom to take a test she was expecting to be negative, and wasn't.Kat shares what it was like to watch from the outside, holding her tongue through the hardest months because she had a feeling it was going to happen, and not wanting to say that out loud in case she was wrong.They also go into the pregnancy itself, the four emergency scans, the breakthrough bleeding that sent Jess to the hospital at eight weeks, the anxiety of standing up slowly every single time and checking for blood. The moment at the studio, ten minutes before a podcast interview, when Jess came to Kat and said she was bleeding and had to leave. And through all of it, the mindset she kept coming back to, miscarriage is never anyone's fault, and worrying about it won't change the outcome.Jess is now in her second trimester, due in early December, and not finding out the gender. Baby's working name is Pickle. Marla has been told there's a baby in mummy's tummy and has asked whether it's in her boobies too.This one will stay with you.Follow and connectInstagram: @wearethecyclistWebsite: wearethecyclist.comHit play. And congratulations, Jess!