Just Sit In It.

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 1 - Just Sit In It. Episode 1's Mood Playlist (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Lonely - Chloe x Halle The Forecast: My Recent Feelings of Loneliness and Gratefulness simultaneously. Ri's Ramble: Trusting God in the Midst of Your Process This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones (Forgive Me I Kept Forgetting People!) Radio Review: Summer 2020 - Jhene Aiko The Reconstruction by Jermisha Frazier Reconstructing Is tearing down, and rebuilding something new. Getting rid of things that no longer benefit you, A clean slate A new plate Fresh start With a courageous soul and pure heart. It's hard. To admit that you've fallen short, Or to- Take a step forward and immediately be push right back When you’re thinking you've made progress, You see the distance you have to go and start feeling less and less, Motivated. Because you remember how close you were- How you almost made it And now you've watched all of your hard work get disintegrated Thennnnnnn. The negative thoughts get contemplated. We all know it happens, but nobody ever wants to say it. How you've- Found yourself in an empty room thinking the worse, I mean. I know my grandmother keeps the .38 in her purse And shit I can't seem to get out this hole so living feels like it's no longer even worth- All the shit I've been going through. Pessimism consumes you. The walls cave in and then- Darkness becomes your new best friend. We've all been through it. When you get in a position where you're 1.6 seconds from saying screw it, But something stops you and you just can't do it Giving up isn't in you. And you decide- At that moment the sorrow no longer can continue And. And- The room starts to get bigger. You breathe and begin to figure- Out your next move. What's best for YOU. That gives birth to your solid foundation. You've already been the perfect demonstration Of where you refuse to go back. Sometimes it takes life kicking you in your ass for you to see the aspects you lack And- Then starting your reconfiguration. Or reconstruction. Tearing down, and rebuilding something new. Getting rid of things that no longer benefit you Letting go of shit that was "supposed" And finally enduring the pain that is Growth.