Learning to Rely on My Higher Power

In this episode, I share an inner experience that shifted the way I relate to external guidance, sponsorship, and a Power greater than myself.There came a point in my sobriety where I began to feel a quiet pull inward — a sense that what I had been relying on externally was not meant to carry me for the entire duration of my sobriety.Through self-reflection, deep study and meditation upon the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, study of other traditions such as Buddhism and Hinduism, and a vivid dream, I began to see the difference between borrowed recovery and a more direct relationship with my higher power, which I call the innermost self.This is simply my experience as it continues to unfold.