Listener question: but I am choosing...

Can we talk about choices/being the choice maker some more! :)There are times when I see it clearly (most of the time, I believe)and there are times when I get confused. For ex. there are many times when I can see my train of negative/painful thoughts and I can see that if I get on it, the ride won’t be fun. So there are moments when I feel “I” am choosing not to get on it by distracting myself by whatever comes to mind in that moment OR when you encourage us to do an exercise, go do the thing, it seems to me that there is “me” choosing whether I want to do it or not based on the information from you. There are times when it feels I am choosing to see something differently, a situation or person etc. Even the recent realisation I talked about where I blamed someone for doing something and then examined myself only to see I was capable of the same. So it looks as though I was looking at myself and I came to those conclusions.  I don’t feel it’s got anything to do with conditioning or any script in the background but purely acting in a moment, one way or another based on the information in that moment. I don’t know if it makes sense so I’d love to hear you talk about that. Where’s my confusion coming from or what am I not seeing? Thank you! ❤️