Live hypnotherapy session first time for me.

Putting myself forward to try out hypnotherapy as I've avoided it for so long, I watched TV shows about it but never tried, I was always frightened of unearthing what is ment to be left buried. I tried it tonight live on Facebook and documented so there would nothing hidden.. And I guess I didn't allow my mind to go deep incase Triggers set in. So I felt that I was prompted on doors which lead me to childhood, I choose not to go any further with hypnotherapy live because I was worried if I would be under spell and not incontrol of my own mind. Just a thought I know but I'm just only getting grips with my new way of thinking and that's to move forward not back to childhood, be mindful of triggers when attempting hypnotherapy. I got stuck and could go any further because of my traumatic childhood butif it was meditation with music then relaxing would be the aim . I was not completely relaxed for my first time. I could not totally let go of my mind. I wanted my control over my mind. I would not allow images in .. now that's the power of the mind . Would I try again ,remains to be a mind over matter 🤔 but at least I took an opportunity to try.