"Looking for a Trudge-Buddy?" | Episode 114 - Abby

In this deeply honest and courageous share, Abby takes us through a journey that begins long before her first conscious drink — into a childhood shaped by trauma, secrecy, and the quiet beginnings of addiction.From early compulsive behaviours and a life built around discipline and control, to the introduction of what she called her “special drink,” Abby unpacks how alcohol became both a coping mechanism and a bond that kept her silent for decades.As her story unfolds, we hear about the intersection of mental health, epilepsy, medication, and alcohol — and how, even while functioning outwardly, things were quietly unravelling beneath the surface.Through college, career, and eventual collapse, Abby shares what it looks like to live with one foot in recovery and one foot out — until a moment of clarity, born out of physical and emotional crisis, forced a decision.Now just over a month sober, she speaks with raw honesty about surrender, resistance, and the challenge of working a program while still wrestling with control. With the support of a sponsor, a growing connection to a higher power, and the strength of fellowship, Abby is beginning to “trudge the road of happy destiny” — one day at a time.This is a story of resilience, awakening, and the quiet courage it takes to start again.