Mariah Horner - Thought #4 - Mentorship and Instincts

Hello. This is Mariah and this is Thought #4.  And this morning I am thinking about mentorship...I know I've had a yearlong under the Metcalf with two organizations and although this mentorship afforded me SO MUCH professional growth in arts administration I kind of think that it's um...also affected my abilitiy to trust my own instincts when it comes to making decisions.  You know, I value mentorship as a practical learning-based thing but I also learned that right now I feel like I am thrust into a sea alone and I can't make decisions without talking to a lot of other people and maybe that's a good thing in theatre, maybe it's a good thing for my career path because I'm interested in collaborative learning but I also think it sometimes makes me distrust my own instincts and I wonder if there is a word for personal mentorship? Like if you could separate yourself into two people? I don't know.