Materialistic love

I was called to do a fast from shopping January and February. Through that time period I realized that I buy clothes to feel love. I was taught that love is measured through materialistic things. How often and how much I received through out my childhood, was how I viewed the amount of love someone had for me. Which led me to always looking to buy something new in my adult hood. Yes, retail therapy is nice but like everything else in this life- understanding WHY I enjoy something allows me to choose if I am doing this from a place of lack or abundance. Realizing the truth behind my attachment to materialistic things, specifically clothes in my case, was a search for me to receive love.