ME - Collapse

Send us Fan MailThis episode, it’s just ME.No guest, no back and forth, no distraction. Just me sitting inside the question that was left and actually answering it instead of dodging it.When have I felt completely helpless and it turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.I go back about eight years. On paper, everything was sorted. House, money, business, toys, family. The life most people are chasing. The top of the mountain I thought was going to fix everything.And nothing changed, because I hadn’t changed.That’s where it started to crack. I hit a point where everything I had built didn’t match how I felt. So I did what most people do. I started looking around for the problem. I changed locations, changed direction, tried to move my life around hoping something would shift.It didn’t. It got worse.I ended up back at my mum’s place in my early forties with my daughter. Everything I owned was tied up in court. COVID hit at the same time. No control, no direction, no idea what the fuck I was doing.That was the collapse.Not the one at 22 when I got sober. This was different. This was internal. Everything I thought I was fell apart.And I didn’t want to hear any of the shit people were saying at the time. That there was a lesson in it. That I should stay with it. That I shouldn’t rush out of the suffering. I wanted it to stop.But that was the turning point.Because when everything else dropped away, I had nowhere left to look except at myself. Not the version I liked, not the story I told, but the actual patterns. The way I showed up in relationships, as a partner, as a father, as a boss, and even as someone trying to help others while still avoiding parts of myself.This episode sits inside that shift. What happens when the life you built doesn’t save you. What happens when the story stops working. What happens when you run out of people to blame and the only place left to look is inward.It also moves into what’s happening now. The world feels unstable, people are under pressure, and there’s a lot of fear around what’s coming next. Most people are looking for answers somewhere outside of themselves, hoping something out there will settle it.What I’ve seen is the opposite.Sometimes things have to collapse. Sometimes you have to feel helpless. Because that’s the only point where something real can actually change, not the surface version, not the image, but the foundation underneath it.I don’t fix it.I sit inside what that collapse actually did, what it showed me, and what it cost to stop running from it.The question I leave for the next guest is this.What is something you wish you were better at in relationships?It’s You. Oh Fuck. It’s ME. In Session with a PsychotherapistHosted by Chad Taylor. Author of It’s You. Oh Fuck. It’s MENo tips.No fixing.Just real conversations.WEBSITEINSTAGRAM BOOK SALES: SHOPIFYGROUPS/COURSES: PATREON