Migration Assistant

Hello and welcome to Raw Impressions with a fuck. No. No. Hello and welcome to Raw Impressions, the freeform, free, a podcast, a codcast from the Barlow and the Dell Barlow.

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Um, boy, boy Lou, Lou is really, he's um, yeah he's really wound up. You're really wound up today we want you. True. True.

How about you, Dell? Are you wound up? How are you feeling? The house is clean.

The house is looking real good. Parts of it. Um, I'm not for track, I'm a head B.T.W. Um, y'all are auditioning me as I understand.

Anyway, carry on, carry on um, as I understand it I'll be popping back in at the end to kind of wrap things up. Okay. See you then. I didn't like the B.T.W.

Yeah. That they said. Mm. I don't like that.

Okay. It's a strike against our, um, our trainee. Auditioning. Uh huh.

M.C. Some sorts of auditioning happening right now, but uh, we could get back. That's true. Well, I, I had to get a new computer, which I did.

Yes. I ordered a new computer and uh, the computer arrived from Shanghai. Mm hmm. I, I was able to track it.

Wow. It went from Shanghai to Anchorage, Alaska and then from Anchorage to Louisville, which is kind of the UPS clearing house. Hub. The hub.

That's where all the, the uh, UPS hub hub is. Mm hmm. There in Louisville. And uh, yeah, it arrived.

I plugged it in. I did something called the migration assistant to put, to put uh, the contents of my Baroque computer, the one that I fell asleep on top of because I was jet lagged from Australia. Mm hmm. My um, really nice MacBook Pro.

Mm hmm. Yep. Um, anyway, so how to get a new one? Mm hmm.

You know, there's a lot of things between, you know, I had to make that decision based on information that I got from the Genius Bar. Yes, we paid a visit. Uh huh. Or local semi-local Apple store.

Anyway, so I did the migration assistant to get the stuff on my old computer onto my new computer. It took hours. It did. And then there's um, very protracted process.

I spent most of yesterday's sort of perched staring at screens. You did. This is my fifth MacBook that I've purchased in the last 20 or 20 odd years. All of them actually still work.

Yeah, they're all still floating around here. Some areas. There's some areas. There's some capacities.

So I thought pretty good luck with these MacBooks. Mm hmm. You know, I'm a supporter. But anyway, when I made the migration assistant move, when I got all the, I then I tried to go into my new computer and it said that my password was wrong.

And it wasn't because I made notes of every password. And this is, I already went through the whole password thing before the migration thing. Oh my God. I did.

So, uh, anyway, none of them worked. Um, so I got really frustrated and I was making noises. I was feeling bad and I feel like I was regressing. I know.

I feel like I was displaying parts of my personality that maybe you haven't seen in a while. Hopefully. Hopefully. Because that kind of frustration, I, I thought of recording myself that way, but I was too angry to record myself.

I was too angry for that kind of like separation where like, Hey, I can use this. I can use this for the. I just think you would want that. I'm going to tell you.

I was like, I thought maybe by recording myself, exclaiming and clenching. There was so much. Yeah. Like, um, and resisting the urge to throw things.

It's been a while since I've thrown something. You didn't throw anything. No, I didn't. Um, have you seen me throw things before?

That's not ringing a bell. I might have really, like when we got together, I was, I might have really made the note and really like just had some self discipline and just don't throw things in front of the bell. Just don't. Don't.

And when you say throw things, what do you mean? Like just pick up something and whip it. Huh? Wow.

I mean, that's definitely a like an unhinged act. I mean, like you're putting together an Ikea shelf or something. And then you just whip it down because it's not working. You get frustrated and you hit with the hammer and you shatter them.

I haven't done anything like that. I mean, I, I guess I just am really good at just repressing that rage. I just push it down like the woman I am. Now your rage is much more.

It's a, it's a mental thing. It's not physical, which is good. Wow. Well, I have to say.

I have to do a number on your, on your system, but I mean, maybe it's better to just throw a pillow or something or punch a pillow. I mean, don't they say that that's like a therapy is that there's like punching pillow therapy. Sure. I think it is.

I think it's a real thing. But I've screamed into a pillow before. Yeah. No, that too.

That too. They've said screaming into pillows is actually a good release. I think I've only screamed into a pillow. I have done it.

I have done it when I've been absolutely pushed to my limit. We've yelled at each other. Well, yeah. I mean, I'm talking about if I thought you were talking about like a.

Like a like with me like what I was I was. Yeah, that's I mean, that had nothing to do with me. You were just mad at technology. I don't know.

I was just mad at technology. Yeah. No, you've yelled at me. Oh, yeah.

I've yelled at you. You sure have. Fuck yeah. I'll use more.

I'd like to think that you'll never yell at me again, but somehow I know. Will you ever yell at me again? I hope not. I don't honey.

I mean, I don't think I certainly. Don't worry. I'm not holding my breath. I've certainly never yelled at you because you did something wrong.

I was usually yelling in my own defense. It's your it's your frustration with myself. I know. It's hard to get busted continuously.

Continuously busted. I give it. But I give it. But I give it.

Well, I will say you were you were in such a place yesterday. I think I'm going to be real with you. I'm recovering from your place yesterday. I'm that it's seeped.

I mean, even though it didn't have to do with me, it did affect the air in the home. Do you know what I mean? Like the quality changed and and that happens. That happens.

You know, but yes, I'm still feeling I'm almost feeling like rage by proxy or something. I don't know. But like me for being mad. I get mad.

I get I get I get scared that people will get mad at me. That's a fear of yours. Yeah, you have a very deep fear that you will be rejected. Oh, sorry.

Is this too personal? No. Okay. Well, I'll just say I know that you have a really deep fear that you will be rejected if somebody sees you get mad.

Is that true? Yeah, it's true. And then in the past when I would get mad at matter and matter because I was like, oh, boy, then you're just like you're digging a hole. Gosh, I'm.

Why stop? I was just like, you're going to hate me. Now you hate me. Now you hate me even more.

Look at me. Now you really hate me. This is like, are you also realizing how similar Izzy is to you right now while you're saying that? Like she kind of doesn't know how to unearth herself when she's in a spiral.

I learned. I think you can really interesting. I think you learn how to I mean she's learning how to do it. I mean, I would say I didn't do that when I was younger.

So it's like this is spiral. No, I mean, no, again, it was more internal. You didn't really have an audience, I suppose. I don't know.

Yeah, I mean, no one was interested in my spiral. My brother's just shut me up. Your parents kind of wrote it. They were reading the paper somewhere.

I don't know. No one was entertaining my, well, my rage, but I. Well, getting a new computer was really unnecessary. It's a necessary.

Watching you go through the password spiral was intense. It was. But I love you. Don't worry.

No, no, I'm not. I'm not rejecting you at all. You love me just a little less. I don't know.

Just tell me. Just tell me. I love me. I know you do.

You love me less. I know it. I can feel it. I have to say I do think you'd one of your things is.

Allowing you often say you're allowed to feel how you feel. I'm going to take a little breath before I go to the next part. Saying that doesn't actually in order for someone to feel like they can really express how they feel. I don't know if I want to say that.

I just want to say that the environment has to feel welcome for that. And I think that your heart does genuinely mean like you can feel how you want to feel. The way it sometimes is displayed maybe doesn't match your heart. Do you know what I'm saying?

Then you can say to me with a certain look like you're allowed to have your feelings. But I might not feel like my feelings are quite so welcome at that time. I just want to say this. No, of course I don't love you less.

I don't love you less at all. I just want to be allowed to have a reaction to what happened which sometimes can take some time. But just like how I feel with children I don't love you less. I'm just feeling my feelings.

The love is unwavering. That's unconditional. You get the special unconditional love for me. You're it.

Really? Yeah. Okay. But I just want to say I want to be allowed to walk around with a little bit of a sour face as I work through the air.

The process. Okay. That's all. After you process the storm.

Sure. Exactly. It takes a while to recover from any storm. Yeah.

The rebuilding process. We will refer to this event from here on as the migration frustration. The password. The punishment.

The password punishment. Penalty. Penalty. I didn't deserve because I saved all my passwords.

You had so many passwords laid out before you. It was as if yeah there was just a list of passwords. And then it kept asking me for more passwords but then not specifying what password was preferred. I know.

Where is my password? And I'm being locked out of this device. This $2,500 device. I mean I ate it.

I was like. We really rely on so much. I broke a $2,500 computer beyond repair. And I needed to buy a new $2,500 computer because that was cheaper than get it was the only viable option.

I had to get a new computer. Yeah. Our fellow with a genius bar seemed pretty convinced of that. I had to do it.

So I did it and I was hoping the process would be smooth. It was not. It has not been smooth. It was not a smooth process.

This has been bumpy. It's been bumpy. But the great thing is look we're about to land. March 20th.

Wednesday, hump day. Okay. We you did crossover. It's now the migration has happened.

The new computer has all of my crap on it. It sure does. It's cluttered and. And now it's like well there it is.

There's my cluttered desktop. It has so much shit on it. Oh my God. It's yeah.

It's a visual nightmare. And now it's on a new in a new definition. And you can hire definition of confusion. High-def confusion.

I know. But I think it's over. Okay. Bless.

I'm sorry. Okay. Not only for that but for other things that I should be sorry for. Okay.

I appreciate that. It's been a it's been a necessarily rough two days. I did have to work through it. I wish I I wish I worked through it with grace.

I did not. But thankfully when I when I knew that I was descending and when I knew I was spiraling for some reason, you know that Jimmy Eat World song it's like it takes some time a little bit about everything be all right. Everything be all right. For some reason yesterday when I was kind of really it was really I just kept hearing that song everything everything can be all right.

All right. I'm like I don't know the song that well. I don't know if I've ever heard the whole song. I've just heard bits of it bits and pieces you know from and stores and from television and from the radio.

But that takes some time. I'm like okay. Okay. Okay.

I don't know why Jimmy Eat World is here for me right now. But there they were. And that song I was like it's just gonna take some time and that got me through yesterday. Wow.

Power of music. So there was no song in my my head today. But I did methodically what I did. I methodically I did methodically when I found out that it wasn't working I was like give and I probably exclaimed a little bit it wasn't too bad this morning or was it.

Well it was ramping up. Yes. It was scary. It was it was tense.

It was tense. I did manage to get Hendrix out the door. I did manage to drive us to school. I did manage to do the things I was supposed to do because I was really rambled.

The extra scrambled and not burned. Although I did burn the first pad of butter. I did I did put some butter on then go up and check my computer and then become completely preoccupied with that and burned the butter. You did.

On the skillet. I came back. I came back to the skillet. I wiped the skillet.

I wiped the it clean and then I told you everything was gonna be okay. You did. And then I came home and then I I did a little I did I I communicated with with an expert. An apple.

Yeah. The chatbot. I did chat and you know what they talked me right through it and everything is fine. Thank God.

Holy cow. I could not have this go another day. I was very annoyed the final step because I still had to I still had to click forgot password. I was like and I was even I was texting the person and I said so do I click you know forgot password even though I didn't forget my password I think even wrote that even though I didn't forget because I was like it must be known I did not forget I mean it's not humiliating it was like you know I'm I'm pleading guilty to something I'm not guilty to I did not forget the password.

They said they said no click forget or forgot and I did I swallowed my pride you trust the process I trusted what they were telling me okay I clicked it you know I quote unquote because I forgot the password but it did lead me to a place where I could come up with a new password and I did so and I also wrote it down thank God and then you're going to tell me too so I can put it in a couple places we need to make sure we're we're doing that we're spreading it all around right now because I've been in such a password yeah peril I feel like do I know the password I know do I know did I write it down is that the right one is that the right one it's the one that I wrote before that one did you did you like circle it and do exclamation points and little stars and stuff next to it like this is the one mother fucker this is the one but I'll know it I'll know it when I see it when I consult my notebook you better I think it's time to circle it's making it really it it made me doubt myself actually didn't make me doubt myself it made me infuriated me you were just infuriated I'm sitting here wondering what people like was there what's the equivalent of this before technology the equivalent of this conversation yeah you know like what in someone's life like I don't know maybe they have to follow up on an insurance claim with on the phone uh-huh you know pre-internet right you and then there may be like what's your claim number yeah we mailed you a letter or something yeah and then you're searching your office for the letter yeah yeah because somebody rear-ended you uh-huh you had nothing to do with it it's not your fault but you you got to go figure it out with your insurance company oh we're gonna fight you tooth and nail on that claim and require you to bring forth every little bit what's the VIN number of your car you're like right where's that piece of paper with the VIN number what if you're like what's a VIN number yeah that would be me but um anyway I think I know now I think I know yeah I think that could be it yeah the equivalent yeah I think um you know we were just it's been intense it's unreally really fucking intense and so that's why all of our video disappeared for YouTube for TikTok um we're gonna get back there guys we now the computer is finally migrated I also have a new laptop um you're really enjoying a new laptop this is a big thing this is Bradell like mine is a long time coming um I I still had my laptop from when I went to Fidham in Los Angeles my fashion school which was um I did I did 17 years ago now one of my favorite stories about you yeah one that um really it sort of explains your relationship to technology I think your first iPhone intimidated you to tears my first iPhone absolutely intimidated me to tears I get really scared about stuff like that like I was actually afraid to like open it like do you know I mean like open it like swipe up or whatever and um press on things and I don't really know what did you scare me did you get it then like turn it on and then you got scared of it no before I even turned it on I was just holding it and I walked out of Best Buy kind of shaky and crying and feeling really nervous about it well I know well you fell in love with your iPhone and then you you turned you turned me on I did yeah well because once I mean I feel like I'm a person who with the technology stuff I can be scared at first like I have this weird hesitancy where the grandness of it I think is like overwhelming for me but then once I start to feel like I'm getting the hang of it I can really enjoy it kind of like my new laptop after my god I think that laptop was like 17 years old yeah like anyway that's I have not had five laptops this is only my second one in the iPad I got you before this laptop it took you three months before you opened it but this the new laptop you actually well you made me open it I did make you open it yeah I was nervous about that too I put my foot down yeah you actually handed me the box and said you're opening this and I was like oh my god I almost felt like crying again what is that does it know that sounds me all right we've hit about the 25 minute mark and that means that you need to shut up I'm sorry I don't mean to be rude I'm getting some conflicting messages I don't know whether the aggressive approach of Fortrack Manus kind of what you want the past of the aggressive what is that what what is it that he does it's hard I'm not trying to imitate I guess I was anyway this this concludes another episode of the wrong impressions podcast podcast podcast I'm not okay thank you so much for listening