my current struggles with body dysmorphia (as an athlete)

It's been six whole years since I was diagnosed with anorexia. I've healed so much but still face struggles with it from time to time and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. I have no idea what my body looks like since body dysmorphia has crept back into my mind. I've started to feel like I need to change my body to be a better athlete again and even as I notice it and don't want to feel this way, I do. Listen for more insight to these current battles I've been having. If you relate, know that you're not alone and we'll get through this together! thank you for being here xx