My Father Has Been Violent to Me Physically and Verbally

🔹Ven Pomnyun’s Dharma Q&A Selection from Casual Conversation with Ven. Pomnyun Sunim (July 11, 2021) 🔹Question: My father has been violent to me physically and verbally. He hit me and my mom. He always told me you should play a role of a boy. I couldn’t have built basic trust to people and life seems very absurd and unjust. I was diagnosed as depression 15 years ago and another mental disease 2 years ago. He sometimes wrote letters saying that he’s very sorry it’s all for your sake and his childhood was not easy. But he repeated the same verbal and physical abuse afterwards. So I found all of his words untrustworthy and hypocritical. I just stopped talking to him years ago and ran away to a faraway country but still suffering. I tried to be grateful to him but it seems so hypocritical as well, so I stopped praying. I don’t want to get married nor have children because I think my spouse and children would suffer as well. I don’t know what to do. 🔻Jungto Dharma School(Introduction to Buddhism):https://www.jungtosociety.org/jungto-dharma-school-online-course/ 🔻 All Jungto Society’ssocial platforms: http://linktr.ee/jungtoint⁠