My Journey to Find Help

things are not going well with my extended family, old friends, etc.Follow Of Darkness & Light on Apple Podcasts and SpotifyMy GoFundMe - Short term help does help a lotOn How I Need Help - What Is Happening to MeI Need Help Now - Saddest Video About My SituationWhy I Cannot Survive Like This Any Longer - On the many things overwhelming my life for lack of ability to perform certain tasks via schizophrenic executive dysfunctionOn Schizophrenic Executive Dysfunction - By Grok for meMy Dream of a Recovery Home for Schizophrenics - Demystifying the truth of schizophrenia can save many poor people from cruelest fatesI’m looking for a patron to help me on publishing and writing endeavors. I’m willing to work things to astute recommendation or co-write to keep moving forward if the circumstances are correct.I would like to write for the stage as well.Complete-Pass BooksJusticeers - Chapter One (Space Opera Epic)Human Fire Power - Chapter One (New Adult Killer; The Foundry Series)Time Bellow Gasoline - Chapter One (Book Two of The Foundry Series)Time Throws Fire - Chapter One (Book Three of The Foundry Series)Unfinished BooksPrincess Starlit & The Icon - Chapter One (Ocarina of Time Hamartia)Miriam in the Middle - Chapter One (Unfinished Justiceers Sequel)Time Destroys Everything - Chapter One (Unfinished Book Four of The Foundry Series)Fortuna Eterna - Chapter One (Unfinished Book Five of The Foundry SeriesTerror From the Deep - Chapter One (Unfinished Sci-Fi Horror)Xianthium - Chapter One (Space Robot War)And She Fell - Chapter One (Unfinished Dark-Alice-Sapphic)Aura Asunder - Chapter One (Unfinished Magic School Takedown)Last Rites of Empire - Chapter One (Unfinished Fantasy-Literature)Dead and Gone to Heaven - Chapter One (Unfinished Novel. Science Fiction. Best.)Ini & Oui - Hidden Chambers (First Short of Collection)Beekeeper of the Dark - Caution (First Short of Collection, Transgressive, Psychological, Illogical Extreme Literature, Just Don’t VibesRadio Play ScriptsVicky Darkblood - Read the playHoly Sword - Read the playShort StoriesDaphne - Heavy Warning - The True Daphne MythologyThe Princess Was in That Castle - Romantic Tragedy PoemHypatia of Earth - This is the best written short story I’ve done, in my estimation, after final edits and cleanup. Think of it as written by Miriam Halafax of the Justiceers for the title.Horrible & Lovely - I like this one despite how plain and painfully vulnerable it is. There’s a magic to that.the underworld (Redux) - My schizophrenic breakdown begins! This was what happened to me in a waking vision at the beginning of my subconscious trying to tell me I was schizophrenic and would apparently, be fighting a demon for some time relating another person I had trauma with. It’s also how my subconscious stoked me up to deliver a letter.The Grimoire - It’s a spaceship, dude.Those Deepest Woods - This is the third short story I created after A Foot in the Door, and Radical Pair. It was months and months later, and when I knew I could write whatever I wanted. The Grimoire was next. My subconscious and me have been flowing with fiction-prose ever since, every day.Willa - This sucks. But it’s all true. I hope it’s a cautionary tale at the end. Many of my stories are for now.The Whore - This is about trans women being abused into people who are then demonized and of emotional degradation.Harriet’s Voice - short story about trans misogynyJusticeers - When I wrote this story I knew it was a novel. When I finished the twelve short stories I wrote starting with Those Deepest Woods, I knew it was time for the Justiceers book and haven’t stopped with long form in tandem.Heavy Dope: A Saga of Cybernetic Justice - I still think this is one of the funniest short stories ever written.Pure Magick - This is the saddest thing I can imagine anybody ever having to write.Mary & Jesus - Mary was one bitch. The Gospels are hers but bastardized. Jesus just killed a dude. Get over it. That’s what dudes are for. Ladies used to let them take all the credit.Grip - HOT, dude. HOT. And it’s my whole heart in need of healing too.Radical Pair - Prequel story to a book I need to re-write, that was my first—in notebooks—long before I was writing from my subconscious flow.Rhinestone & Calligula - What if we were The Milky Way as a soul, and Andromeda was something we already felt inside us through time? If you spun a rhinestone how would it look?A Foot in the Door - My first short fiction story, other than screenplays. Before the Precipice of Time - this is literally the first thing I wrote as channeled from my subconsciousOlder Short Stories, Unloved for Much TimeIt Wakes - love is a mystery under the wavesYaro Station - about being stranded from someone you love and going mad alonePeace Waves - about a vacation I took by myselfBattle Breaker - explicit space vampire war legionGood Boy - about me writing myself as a boy dogBones - my subconscious proving it was writing through meEssaysOphelia’s Art World - my dream of a better futureThe Worst Thing That Anybody Has Ever Done - how I was emotionally abused into extra-powered schizophrenic executive dysfunction, told comedically, as if I was a mother admonishing my childish and still clearly psychotic abuserSeeds of Spring - on planting seeds for your year in the SpringHer Journey to Now - on growing up trans and closetedHow it Happens - how the world might change one day with loveWhat it Means to Love - an essay on the meaning of loveBeing a Victim of Unseen Sexual Abuse - on trans feminine sexual abuseCapitalism… Why? - exploring why life hurtsWhy Nobody Trusts Anyone | Emotional Manipulation is Not What You Think It Is - let’s get realWhat Needs to Be Said - on trans genocide in the openExisting as a Form of Resistance - on walking in public after Donald Trump was re-electedSolidarity Between the Struggles of Black Folks and Trans People - there is a cognitive dissonance horror sharedDancing into Flow - on dancing and becomingWe Are Demented and Holy - let’s unpack thatA Dance of Darkness and Light - on challenging love This is a public episode. 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