Nerves (early demo)

My half of a mixtape released with Arbor Daze: arbordaze.bandcamp.com https://soundcloud.com/failingst i watch the cars in front of us just dying for something to do but i wait our turn to move while the trees explode in bloom the fireworks fade soon and the tv snow comes down i fall fast asleep to last year's shows written beneath my eyes i'll stay up all week watch the screen glow and never leave my room someone shake me please just tell me to breathe then leave me the hell alone and lately i wonder why the sound of the phone makes me want to die and anyways it's not like you care anymore so i've got what i had before you're just another you're just another face in this crowd and anyways it's not like you care anymore so i've got what i had before you're just another you're just another you're just another nerve knives drill through my teeth and in my gums, bleeding and numb and dying the color drains my cheeks and makes the whole world look a little redder and underneath the sun my limbs grow weak my eyelids fly and shudder it's the breath i feel in me down in my lungs, but no words come and anyways it's not like you care anymore so i've got what i had before you're just another you're just another face in this crowd and anyways it's not like you care anymore so i've got what i had before you're just another you're just another you're just another nerve 'cause i'm scared of hearing your voice now and i see your face in every nameless crowd and i don't know how to defend myself when it's do or die and i haven't felt alive till now if you're afraid of me then you should know that i'm just another coward, too afraid to throw your things away these taped up boxes count the days that we won't wake up face to face and everything is wonderful until it's not but who thinks about that? we grow up too fast we grow up too fast we grow up too fast