Nicola Chapman on masking pain, her MS diagnosis and learning how to live

This is one of the most open-hearted episodes to date where beauty YouTube queen Nic Chapman talks about her MS diagnosis and the light she’s found in a traumatic darkness. She’s one of the few people to speak up about not feeling attached to her baby initially and she also breaks down the stigma of reaching out for help in that maternal fug. It’s a story of love, loss and unending optimism from a woman who built an empire on papering over the cracks with make-up and is now fully laid bare. Prepare to laugh and cry in equal measure. Original music by Matt J Brown at WeAreOK.com