Noah’s Shadow (The Fact of Him)

September brings memory back to campus Cars, boxes, parents, sunlight, damage I thought Noah had turned into weather Then I saw his sister Turns out the dead keep facts behind them Fresh term light Cutting clean! Move-in noise Too bright a scene! Then there she is with a stack of files His eyes, just altered by a couple miles Lena standing where the day should be No ghost now Just biology Noah’s face in a family line Dragging his reality into mine Noah’s Shadow, not a dream Noah’s Shadow, harder than it seems He’s not a mood, no, no He’s not a stain, go, go He had a name He had a door He had a sister He was more Noah’s Shadow The fact of him Old messages Cold blue light Late replies Every night “I don’t want to stress you.” “Take your time.” He kept making pain sound polite “I wish you wouldn’t only look at me When I’m halfway gone and trying to leave.” There it was in a sentence plain: I liked the orbit, not the man Noah’s Shadow, not a dream Noah’s Shadow, harder than it seems He’s not a mood, no, no He’s not a stain, go, go He had a name He had a door He had a sister He was more Noah’s Shadow The fact of him Did you love him? No. Did you fake it? Mostly so Did he know? Not enough Was he weak? No, just tough In the wrong direction Wrong for me He stayed human I stayed scenery He wasn’t a mirror That’s the cut He was a person I just wasn’t up to it Noah’s Shadow, on the wall Noah’s Shadow, past it all I didn’t lose him I never had The kind of heart He thought I had He was the fact I wouldn’t read The one real thing I turned to need No more mirrors Just the fact He’s not a ghost anymore He’s somebody’s brother And I knew him less than that The full story to this album is here, free to download: https://tinyurl.com/222a28ct