Nobody Likes Sad People

I'm not gonna lie to you all, I was kind of just rambling here so idk if any of this made any sense. I think I was just kind of projecting my insecurities and feelings of not being important in peoples live. I completely understand that others have their whole lives and cannot be fully invested in me and my healing journey, just as I don't have it in me to be FULLY invested in theirs. I do my best because I know the feelings of loneliness too well, but even still I know I can't hold their hand every step of the way, which is what I wish I had for me I guess. Because going through these dark times is exhausting and the worst, so of course I don't want to do it. I wish somebody would just come and do it for me, hold my hand and walk me through the healing process. But as we all probably know, this is my healing journey and only I can hold my own hand. Knowing this doesn't make it any easier, I still get these ugly thoughts of feeling like nobody cares. I was just venting about it I guess. But to be clear, I know I have good people in my life who DO care. So I'm sorry if this episode makes me sound ungrateful.