NRT Symptomology Intensifying

Cycle 12 Day 5. Friday, April 10th. It’s 8:29 in the morning....and the second, and most drawn-out, phase of compression-phase symptoms is definitely upon us.As I reviewed in my previous post, all of the aberrations and warps to my bodily sensations, catalyzed by the peak effects of chemotherapy, have really started to set in.This can be clearly seen in my sleep quality.The previous nights before tonight, starting from infusion start, have been characterized by those most initial reactions to the poisoning, where my body is in a kind of febrile state and is just lying in bed feeling nauseous, but also intermittently collapsing and sleeping for a very long time as long as I am staying in bed long enough.So upon initiating treatment on Tuesday, I slept 8 hours and 24 minutes, and I lay in bed for a total of 14 hours.The night before tonight, I slept for a total of 9 and a half hours, and I lay in bed for 11 hours.In addition, a lot more additional time during daytime was spent laying in bed during these two days, although it was not logged as quality sleep by my smart ring. However, tonight I lay in bed for 10 hours and 47 minutes, yet only accumulated 6 hours and 42 minutes of sleep.So my sleep efficiency was down to 62% from the previous night's 86%...My total sleep was down to less than seven hours despite being in bed for 10 hours and 47 minutes.And this will continue into tonight and for a few more nights, where the disruptions to my bodily systems will simply be too intense for my sleep cycles to handle.So I will have disruptions to many of my sleep cycles with each night’s sleep.The Body Turning StrangeTo add to that, when I woke up just now, I felt even more intensified symptoms in terms of this closing in on a near-psychedelic state, as I’ve brought up before.One of the characteristics is that if I move my body, if I move my head, there is a kind of latent effect in my nervous system, and there are integrated effects in my gut that are felt by moving my body.I have this continuous throbbing sensation stretching from around my neck—the side of my neck, a very throbbing, pulsating sensation—that reaches down along my neck, down toward the torso, toward the gut.And just now I was sitting cross-legged, and something disrupted the nerve impulse and/or blood flow to my right leg’s calf area, and I felt this weird jerk in my calf, like a strange electric sensation.So there are all these weird aberrations coming on in my body.And it will just keep getting weirder, and I will just have to ride it out.Drinking Water Through the DistortionAnother thing, sensation-wise, that will intensify during today is that while drinking water, the water coming into my system will feel very weird as well.So we’re in for a long trip.But we just have to try and enjoy it.And me framing it as a psychedelic-like experience, I think, is very fitting.It is also psychologically smart, because then I can frame it in a more curious-minded way, rather than thinking too much about what is actually happening.Because a lot of things are happening inside my body.Some of it is good. Some of it is bad.But it is interesting to observe it through the lens that there are all these warps and aberrations to my bodily systems, and to think about how they tie together.As the different subsystems in my body are interconnected, how do they tie together?Mapping the SensationsSo now the throbbing around the neck area is intensified.There is a kind of pins-and-needles sensation as I now sat up in the bed.I’m more exposed to the internal temperature in my apartment, and that also feels weird.There’s a throbbing around my loin area.A throbbing on the soles of my feet.It is this inflammatory state throughout my body where things are kind of throbbing and feeling hot—pulsating, pins-and-needles type sensations, sometimes rushing sensations, gushing sensations, like some type of flow.But we’ll ride this one out.And we’ll try to bring back some wisdom from it as well.So yes—looking forward to a long trip… Might relay some more of my experiences from it later on.Until then:Be mindful of your life force.Namaste. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit victorsalander.substack.com