On God.

This episode is also available as a blog post: https://imnotgoood21blog.wordpress.com/2022/08/19/god/ Though there’s days I’ve fallen to my knees and bellowed to the wind, an inner force awakens, refusing to let me fade away into the darkness for very long. Words cannot quite express the phenomenon when this force pushes me to do or say things that I’d never imagined, yet here I am, making a spectacle of it. But in my heart I know just what it is – it’s God. My younger self always refused to acknowledge this force, further denying what lie deep inside. Younger me refused to believe in something I couldn’t see with my own two eyes, feel with my own two hands, or hear with my own two ears. I cannot change what my younger self believed; sometimes I just wish I could hug my younger self and tell her, “trust yourself, you’ll make it out, your heart will fly, believe!” But then I remember that I cannot look back, I must keep going, believe, and let the light guide my way – even when the darkness tries to interfere.