Overwhelm... Listener description

I feel like a grenade has gone off inside of me, very thing going off and blown up inside of me.I am experiencing the raw grief and heart ache of loosing my husband as you know.I have properties trying to be sold and yet have no home. I have money held in the bank but have no money.The security I had with being with my husband has blown up I am no longer a WE. I no longer have my husband to do things together.Wills and taxes and so much more having to be dealt with.I am learning from the course about reality and mind activity but the reality is so real in all it’s goings on.Through your course  Claire I am seeing bit by bit who I am not, about the self.However this afternoon I felt that without my husband life is going to be so much different and that is reality.But I felt hurt upset insecure lost and so much more and I found it difficult to actually see the difference in the reality and the mind activity making up stories.I feel very confused about what I am experiencing and making up.Life will change because I have never know really what it is like to be the real I to know the real I have lived worried and concerned about my family and others. People pleasing etc.I have had a melt down today and I think your amazing course and subliminals are blowing everything up to be seen but I feel overwhelmed which I feel is amazing. But also having to deal with life I just fell apart.And Clare you are teaching me that it’s not down to the self to control be in charge is the self doesn’t exist.I was just wondering if you have anything to say on when life throws so much stuff at one time and being open and real to it all but also living with the stress and also the effect on the body.Clare I love being with you, I love all that you point to, I feel so much love when you speak of this understanding. I respect you and most of all I thank my wisdom for guiding me to you because without you and Home I’m not sure I would be as ok as I am.