Hey, should we go? Okay. Well, I'm here to tell you please yourself. I know we're quick to be like, oh my god Like man.
I want a guy to please me this way. Oh, I want this. Oh, I want that and I know there's a lot of wants But you know what do we need what do we need for ourselves? And I can attest to this because I was in a three-year relationship that I truly loved I mean really really loved and I learned that I did lose my way maybe My main focus was just my partner and I guess you're just taught that that's just a bad thing When I always look at it like a good thing because I knew whoever was going to be with me I treated them like a king and I was like a goal of mine and I think I achieved that pretty well But on top of it, I think maybe I did lose my way a little maybe maybe I should have put myself first Then instead of putting my partner first that that didn't mean that I forgot about me Yeah, I put him first, but I always followed up with me always I always wanted to make sure that if I'm a relationship This is a team effort.
We're a team and if you put me first, I'm gonna put you first So we're both technically going first So what I'm trying to say is if you aren't in a relationship and you want to be in one or the universe or God It's telling you to wait take that time to focus on you and yet that could be kind of hard because I know for me I'm having the most difficult time to myself first, but you know what I didn't really have a choice. I Really didn't I honestly had to put myself first. There was no other way and Kind of glad that that happened because I mean a lot of things about myself I didn't even know and even though this journey is a little bit hard. I will have to say you Can do it because I am still and yeah, there are days when you just want to choke the crap out of your ex or a person in your future or Maybe someone like next to you who knows But sometimes you just have to pick you and that can be one of the hardest things to do and I know for me That is the hardest thing I love making other people smile and the reason that I do it things that I do is because that's what I want for me I want someone to put me first.
I want to want to be invested in me I want someone to just want to make me smile all day long Hey, if I need to go here, you want to take me because you know, you'll make me happy I know I can do that so I want the same a return and maybe that scares people Maybe they're not ready for that and that's okay. That's okay, and maybe I didn't understand that in the beginning But I understand that now and I'm still trying to understand it just a little bit more just so I know that I'm on the right track But if anybody is ever feeling how I'm feeling right now, I'm letting you know that it's gonna get better You just have faith that it will even when you feel like it won't Then yeah, sometimes I feel like positive things aren't gonna come away because I'm constantly negative things But the only positive thing That you can get out of a negative one is just putting you first even when you can't get the big things that you want Maybe it is that guy that you've been dreaming of having your entire life or Maybe it was his dream car or whatever, you know, maybe just getting your ex back Who knows but I know right in the moment right now You are your biggest prize and yeah, that can be kind of hard to swallow But you got to put yourself first and if he's not putting you first you have to because you came into this world alone You came into this world So you have to make yourself happy and soul again and another person shouldn't be the only person that makes you happy a Hobby should also make you happy. Um, maybe an idea should make you happy, but you You make yourself happy with whatever it may be and yeah It'll be all comfortable at first, but you know what? No one can make you more happier than yourself You know because when that person dies what else is gonna make you happy if it's just that person So take that today because I'm teaching myself that every day