PODCAST-MAISON MAGIQUE

PODCAST-MAISON MAGIQUE Photo Courtesy of  M.J. Tangonan 0:00 / 0:00 Maison Magique   MAISON MAGIQUE was published in Streetlight in April 2024.             I have a five-year-old grandchild who lives in Paris. Recently, she informed me that when she plays tag at her schoolyard, to avoid becoming “it,” all she must do is scurry to a yellow drum, touch it, and yell, “Maison Magique!” Those two words keep her safe.             “Nothing bad can happen to you in maison magique, Deb-deb.” She calls me “Deb-deb” to get around the parental edict, “You may not call an adult by her first name.” My grandchild’s voice is reassuring because she believes what she asserts. Listening to her, I longed for both her confidence and the presence of maison magique in my life.             I grew up in a nine-apartment tenement in a factory town. I lived in a sea of concrete and asphalt, but even at a young age, yearned for lush forests and fields. Our building stood across from Smalley Elementary. On a hillside behind the school, a few trees and bushes struggled to thrive. The hilly patch divided the school from Hartford Avenue below, a rough place where petty crime often occurred.             I took every opportunity to spend time in that slim swath of green. A weeping willow tree grew mid hill. If you parted the branches, you could slip under a shaded canopy. In that safe space, I’d lie back and dream big dreams.       One summer afternoon, when I was eight, just as I planned to sneak off to my retreat, an aunt pushed her two-year-old son in my direction. “Take him to the swings.”       Instead of going to the swings, I dragged the hefty cousin to my sanctuary. After we arrived, he fell asleep in the cool beneath the willow. I drifted off but awakened to sounds of someone crashing through bushes and shouting. The person’s garbled words made no sense. When I parted the willow branches, I saw an unshaven man stumbling up the hill, brown bottle in one hand and something metallic and shiny in the other.       He called out, “Hey girlie!” then lurched in my direction.       I begged my cousin to run but he wouldn’t budge. I lifted the child and staggered up the hill.  The man kept falling then righting himself, all the while working his way toward us. My cousin’s shoe snagged in a bush. When I tugged hard, his foot came loose, minus the shoe. I looked back to see the man standing only a few feet from us, so I took off, leaving the shoe behind.       The man tumbled again, which gave us time to get onto the playground. I ran back to the apartments. When I said I’d been chased, I was told to return and find the shoe. I stood my ground and refused. ***       These days, I weep when I read about the conflicts in Ukraine and the Middle East, about the endless mass shootings, and the predictions that our democracy is going to devolve into a dictatorship. When I feel overwhelmed by personal and global events, I wish I could find safety simply by touching a yellow drum and yelling, “Maison magique!” But I have no drum and even the embrace of my weeping willow did not keep me safe.       Our world is a dangerous place. When I consider current happenings and what might lie ahead, I often feel afraid, not just for myself but for future generations. However, living in a joyless state of fear is untenable. I agree with a line from a Wendell Berry poem that advises, “Be joyful though you have considered all the facts.”       My goal is to be alert to moments of joy and live at peace in the middle of chaos. Finding peace is not one and done. The pursuit of peace is an intentional leaning toward whatever light I can discover in each day.             When I take the time to shut out the noise, I find myself resonating with the optimism of my grandchild, the five-year-old who invites me to consider a different possibility, a place of safety, peace, and joy. Despite my fears, I do believe that somehow, some day, all will be well. The blessing of that slender hope lends a tremulous buoyancy to my brief stay in this broken world. ### MAISON MAGIQUE was published in Streetlight in April 2024.   (Photo by Jen Fariello)Deborah Prum’s fiction has appeared in The Virginia Quarterly Review, Across the Margin, Streetlight and other outlets. Her essays air on NPR member stations and have appeared in The Washington Post, Ladies Home Journal and Southern Living, as well as many other places. Check out her WEBSITE. Check out her DEVELOPMENTAL EDITING SERVICES. Check out her PAINTINGS.  APPLE PODCAST SPOTIFY PODCAST