【菩提好聲音 #30】情到深處人孤獨 At the Depth of Love, One Finds Solitude

Although we deliberately avoid the truth, deep in our hearts, we know that nothing is eternal. We cannot grasp what is meant to slip away.雖然我們刻意地回避真相，但在內心深處，其實知道這些是無法永恆的，是怎麼抓也抓不住的。We see death, bankruptcy, and the fall of the powerful. We see the young grow old and the healthy fall ill.我們看到很多人死亡，看到很多公司破產，看到很多官員下馬，看到曾經年輕的人日漸衰老，看到曾經健康的人臥病不起。Even if these haven't happened to us yet, the resulting sense of crisis casts a shadow over our hearts.即使這些尚未發生在自己身上，但由此而來的危機感，總會或多或少地對我們產生衝擊，使內心蒙上陰影。We are accustomed to relying on the external world—family, friends, and companions. When these supports vanish or when we feel a sense of detachment from them, solitude strikes.我們已經習慣依托外在世界來生存，習慣於家庭、親人的陪伴。當這些外境不復存在，或者當我們與這些外境產生疏離感時，孤獨就撲面而來了。It is like an invisible opponent, acting in the dead of night or slipping in amidst a bustling crowd.它像一個看不見的對手，時而在夜深人靜時行動，時而在人聲鼎沸處潛入。Have you ever been struck by it? There is a saying: "At the depth of love, one finds solitude."你曾被它擊中過嗎？曾被它折磨過嗎？有句話叫做「情到深處人孤獨」。Our goals and passions feel real only when we are buried in pursuit. Once we stop, we realize those firm supports were but bubbles; those certain goals were but dreams.一切的愛戀，一切的目標，只有在我們埋頭追求時，才顯得格外真切。一旦停下腳步，卻會發現，曾經那麼堅實的倚靠，不過是個泡沫。At such moments, we feel that all life possesses an original, inescapable solitude.在這樣的時刻，我們會覺得，一切生命其實都有著原始的、難以排遣的孤獨。The root of this solitude lies in our inability to find ourselves—our failure to know our true nature.這種孤獨感的根源，也在於我們找不到自己，不知道生命的本來面目。In our delusion, we see "self" as separate from "others" and the "world." When this separation occurs, we feel we are walking alone in a vast, uncertain landscape.在我們的錯覺中，我就是我，眾生就是眾生，世界就是世界。當這一切分離時，我們會感到，自己永遠是在四顧茫然中踽踽獨行。No matter how well your family treats you or how grand your career is, when you leave this world, you go alone and empty-handed.不管家人對你多好，不管事業做得多大，當你離開這個世界時，還是獨自一人，兩手空空。Thus, life is accompanied by fear, loss, and a sense of lack. We worry about losing what we hold and fear the ego will be crushed. When everything drifts away, where is the true place for "Me" to settle and live?所以，生命始終伴隨著恐懼感、失落感和匱乏感。當所有這些漸行漸遠，哪裡又是「我」的安身立命之處呢？