RE 461: Wait, You Drink Poison?

Today we have Gill. She's 33 years old from Lexington, MA and took her last drink on November 9th, 2019. Today's Sponsor: Café RE Update from Ryan H on episode 457 – "I'm going on two weeks now and I'm definitely starting to notice a difference in my mood, digestive issues and weight." [03:02] Intro: Paul shares two Instagram accounts that will help you on your sobriety journey: Drop the Bottle - all about sobriety and ditching the booze. A.L.A.D.D.I.N – not about sobriety, but it is entertaining and when it's creator shares his art with the world, it gives others permission to do the same. [08:22] Paul introduces Gill: Gill is 33 and lives right outside of Boston, MA. She has a husband and a cat. She loves playing video games, going to concerts and travelling. She teaches chemistry courses and labs at a college in Boston. She is also the host of the Sober Powered podcast. Gill says she didn't start drinking until grad school. She didn't have opportunities in high school because she was bullied and didn't hang out with people that drank. She started because she feared that if she didn't then no one would like her. Once she tried it a few times and got her first buzz, she enjoyed it so much it became a regular thing for her. Gill started having repercussions from drinking early on. She didn't know her limits, had frequent opportunities to drink and would end up getting sick and having blackouts. Gill thought all of this was normal and that everyone drank like her. Gill says that her performance in school started suffering and there was multiple drink fueled fights with her boyfriend (who is now her husband). Gill ended up leaving program and decided to start teaching instead. She learned that drinking helped with the stress she experienced while teaching. Over time she switched from wine to vodka to save money. Her tolerance increased, and she started struggling with hangovers at work. Trying to moderate and make rules around her drinking was frustrating for Gill. People didn't want her to quit and when she would bring it up others would downplay it and tell her she was fine. Gill's depression was getting worse, and she started waking up with uncontrollable anxiety often. Once she began having suicidal thoughts, she got scared. Gill decided to take a break for 90 days to lower her tolerance and thought she would be cured. During that time her suicidal thoughts and anxiety lessened. She completed the 90 days and started drinking again and the consequences quickly followed. After her last rule was compromised, she realized she had to accept that she had to let alcohol go indefinitely. While it was scary at first, Gill says she also felt a sense of peace. Gill didn't think she needed meetings when she first quit but doesn't recommend people try to do it alone. After the pandemic started, Gill found she had the time to go to therapy, she started listening to podcasts, and doing a lot of research on the science around alcohol addictions. She wanted to share what she had learned with others, so she started her own podcast: Sober Powered. Gill's advice for the holidays: you don't have to go to everything if you are worried that you're going to drink or that you can't stay sober, don't go. Gill's go-to tool to get past a craving: walking, rage walking. Instagram Recovery Elevator YouTube Sobriety Tracker iTunes Recovery Elevator I love you guys. Go big because eventually we'll all go home.