Realizations Hit Hard Part 1

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Hey... Welcome to THE TEENAGER'S DIARY where you hear the different feelings, thoughts, and emotions of the teenager. Well, this is your host, SHADOW SPARKLING. I'm a different teen of 14 and I hope to enlighten you by sharing everything I have. Well,... Today, we are going to talk about "REALIZATIONS HIT HARD" PART 1. And like always, I would love if you keep an open-mindset while listening to this. THE FIRST TRIGGER. As long as I can remember the first trigger was from Jujitsu Kaisen. Itadori Yuuji said (what I can remember NOW), “I don’t know how I will feel when I’m dead but no matter what I don’t want to regret the way I lived.” And that struck like an arrow to my HEART ??. After that I was… DIFFERENT. The same guy to others but inside I was a totally changed human who was determined to give meaning to this life he has been given. I was making the foundation of my fort, (I still am) for after 18, I’m gonna step in the real world. I am extremely grateful to the face that I HAVE SOME TIME LEFT. To GOD, the one and only. I recently lost faith in the materialistic worship. ?? INTRODUCTION TO THE FAKE REALITY. But yeah, I am STRONGER than my previous self. My wings are strengthening day-by-day through learning at least one thing new every day??. I can see my next step. It feels good. But the thing is, as much as I’m getting what the real world is, I’m afraid for others who are not yet introduced to TRUE YET FAKE REALITY, THIS WORLD GIVES AND PROVIDES FOR MOST. Take this as an example, in the school, we spend a total 12 years (Indian) and then we go to a good college. In the school we are taught the HOW and WHAT; and not the WHY. We are trained heart and soul to be the PERFECT EMPLOYEES and then we get the thought fixed into our minds that “We have to earn money to be alive, to smile and then of course FOR HAPPINESS”. FATHER AS AN EXAMPLE. My father is a perfect example. He is a professor in English ?????. He has over a hundred students in total and he teaches non-stop whenever he has free time. He does not give Ma a damn about most things and also does not back down when they have an argument. Then we are taught to, no… fit into and convinced into our minds by our parents and loved ones that we can be anything we want. The truth is, YOU CAN’T BE JUST ANYTHING YOU WANT. You will realize that in the future. ?? MONEY ??. Then comes the most important materialistic possession one can have in this mortal life: MONEY. I personally like to have money, but I DON’T LIKE THE WAY MOST PEOPLE THINK ABOUT MONEY. They think (most) that money is some kind of token which you get for working hard. Something that can bring happiness. Something that will end all your problems. You are dead wrong people. Yeah, sometimes money does end your problems. But not all the time. Never. It was not much time before I realized that the most important thing in this universe is “TIME”. This is the real boss. You know sometimes, I think that if I hadn’t watched Jujitsu Kaisen, probably I would have wasted my time now doing unproductive stuffs. Some of us are taught to work hard for money yet at the end of the day all it remains are regrets for not spending time with what you want. MONEY DOMINATES THIS MORTAL WORLD. OTHER’S THOUGHTS. This ain’t right at all??. I don’t know why people let what others’ thoughts and words DOMINATE THEIR LIFE. Why do we fail to realize that it’s our life, OUR OWN LIFE and we can live the way we want? Its crazy to realize all this after you have spent half of your life. But it’s not too late to change. People are gonna say a lot of things. They have mouths and so do you. But instead of using it to defend yourself, shut it up. Because an argument runs on input and when the input is silence, it gets diminished. We have one and only one life to lead. Why do we even bother to think what others would think? “What our parents would think? what would our friends think? What would SHE think? etc…” are QUESTIONS WHICH WILL HOLD YOU DOWN INSTEAD YOU LIFTING YOU UP. Let people be with their thoughts, and mind your own business. CHANGES IN SCHOOLS. You know, when we go from class 10 to class 11, there’s a huge amount of increase in the syllabus. And by the pressure of it, some students even drown themselves in depression. I think in schools, there should be soft skills development classes, basic finance classes and classes where OUR MINDS, NOT BRAINS ACTUALLY DEVELOP. Well, I can write a lot about this and I will. For the past one year, I have been shut out and I need someone to talk to, but in the reality, every people have been getting others to listen to theirs. HATE MYSELF. Sometimes I hate myself. These feelings come quick and go quick too. But these have a long effect on… everything. Well, DEATH MEDITATION has helped a lot. This is a method from the book THINK LIKE A MONK. You can read about that here. I will write about DEATH MEDITATION in the next entries perhaps. If I have already written it, then you will be able to get it here. Well, this has been great, I am thankful to all and everything I have. But this isn’t complete??. I will write a PART TWO and post it as the next entry. Till we meet again, goodbye. That will be all . Thanks for being till the end. Sign up to my weekly newsletter , where I will remind you about the things you might have missed. It's FREE and will come on SUNDAYS . You just have to scroll down to the footer. I would be extremely grateful to you for doing that hard work of scrolling . Check out my INSTAGRAM & TWITTER accounts too. And also, you can get to know me at my FACEBOOK PAGE & PINTEREST. They too are at the bottom . Or you can simply click at the three lines at the top right. Goodbye, till we meet in the next entry . This is Shadow Sparkling signing off.

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