reclusive

## Intro [00:02] Well, anyway, that this is one of the symptoms of our phony sense of identity, of our phony feeling that we [00:13] are something lonely, locked up in a bag of skin, confronted with a world, an external, alien, foreign world [00:23] that is not me. ## Chorus [00:24] Life without blueprints. [00:35] Something to do with the moon’s movement. [00:42] Only out when the moon’s lit. [00:45] My nightmares lucid, my thoughts get intrusive. [00:49] My new phone, who dis? [00:53] I can’t fuck with these humans. [00:56] That’s why I stay reclusive. [00:57] I just stay reclusive. [01:01] Why I stay reclusive, reclusive. [01:06] I just stay reclusive, reclusive, reclusive. [01:11] I just stay reclusive. [01:16] Why I stay reclusive, reclusive. ## Verse 1 [01:21] Walk all over me, of course I’ll still do that for you. [01:26] Ooh, October leaves, now November pours too. [01:30] It’s just too much, I don’t mean to ignore you. [01:34] Do you know that I need support too? [01:38] But I don’t wanna have to force you. [01:43] When you don’t gotta ask me, I got you. [01:47] Lately, I just wanna die, I’m overwhelmed. [01:51] The world just a short fuse, short fuse. [01:55] Walk all over me, of course I’ll still do that for you. [01:59] Ooh, October leaves, now November pours too. [02:03] It’s just too much, I don’t mean to ignore you. [02:07] Do you know that I need support too? [02:11] But I don’t wanna have to force you. [02:15] When you don’t gotta ask me, I got you. [02:20] Lately, I just wanna die, I’m overwhelmed. [02:24] The world just a short fuse, just a short fuse. ## Verse 2 [02:27] You will never understand how much I adored you. [02:33] Got your heart broke again, baby, poor you. [02:38] Heart broke again, baby, poor you. [02:42] I been steppin’ on these eggshells. [02:47] All this self-hate, I really hate myself. [02:51] And if I choose to leave— [02:54] But I wanna see how it plays out. [02:57] Yeah, we starting to see that you forget me or fake now. `[?]` [03:03] Always all alone when I’m ’bout to break down. [03:07] And I wonder why no one wanna stay around. [03:12] But I’ll still be a shoulder to cry on. [03:16] Know I’m unappreciated my life long. `[?]` [03:20] I think all my time’s gone by ’cause I’m burdens. `[?]` [03:25] Instrumentals that I cry on. [03:29] Concrete jungle made to lie on. `[?]` [03:34] They all gonna love me when I’m gone. [03:38] You hate me. [03:39] I just need someone I can rely on. [03:48] I just need someone—someone I can rely on. ## Verse 3 [03:49] I can never keep a bad bitch as long as I got these habits. [03:57] This sickness has been active. [04:01] Since then I’ve been feeling absent. [04:06] Abandoned, I adapted. [04:10] Get betrayed like I imagined. [04:14] Writing some other nobody’s anthem. [04:18] Get portrayed like a motherfucking tantrum. [04:23] Baby, tell me how that’s attractive. [04:26] But she knew I was an addict. [04:30] They put me on a blacklist. [04:34] I got these issues with attachment. [04:38] And even more with the detachments. [04:42] I’m crazy, baby, I’m batshit. [04:47] And the worst part of it all is that I know it, I know it. ## Outro [04:55] Life without blueprints. [04:58] Something to do with the moon’s movement. [05:04] Only out when the moon’s lit. [05:08] My nightmares lucid, my thoughts get intrusive. [05:12] No new phone, who this? `[?]` [05:16] I can’t fuck with these humans. [05:19] Why I stay reclusive. [05:20] I just stay reclusive. [05:24] Why I stay reclusive. [05:27] Reclusive. [05:29] I just stay reclusive. [05:40] Why I stay reclusive. [05:43] Reclusive……. > **Content note:** The lyrics include a line about wanting to die. If that line reflects how you are feeling personally, please contact local emergency services or a suicide-prevention hotline now, and reach out to someone you trust who can stay with you.