Red Flags and Loaded Guns

Sometimes you don’t realize you’re learning how to survive. You just think you’re being a good, obedient kid. In this episode, I go back to some of the moments that taught me about fear, compliance, and the people who were supposed to protect me. From childhood experiences that shaped my fight, flight, freeze and fawn responses to the complicated ways those survival skills followed me into adulthood, this one gets HEAVY. There’s family history, some seriously questionable “keepin’ it the family” math, domestic Violence, firearms, and a few stories that were harder to tell than I expected. And yes… apparently I eventually stopped hiding in people’s buttcracks. Content Note: This episode discusses childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, firearms, threats of violence, and trauma. At the end of the episode, I also share a simple breathing exercise that you can use if you need a moment to come back down.