Redzek - When I Die

everybody heard the news that my body is hurt and bruised why my girl is so confused my words got you talkin to yourself,it helps to know the truth you know i fought nail and tooth all i say is real and i aint even gotta show a proof i was only thinking,what if just cannot make it through im thinkin about everything i never got to say to you my girl you just helped me through, all the pain , its insane, and i wanna thank you too for your heart, from the start for you love,from above you'r like a dream comin true and you know its true, i spent my lifetime lovin you you'r the one who made me who i am but daaaaamn a real woman i would say, but you'r the man i just wish you remember me everytime that you breath and forever imma stay it cuz it aint fine to leave i knew this would happen one day...why?..it could but i never thought i'd never tell ya good bye for good if i could just sit and admit that im so wrong said that im pissed, why you acting like you know nuttin? thought i exist,i thought livin was a biss will i be missed when my memories all gone? i know i promised that forever ill be by your side you see my eyes show the feeling that im tryna hide im feelin so sad, i wish that i was there to hold ya in my arms and show ya that i care im sittin at home alone,gone with myself writin feelings that i've never shown cuz it helps thinkin about my mother, how i never told her how i felt i never been thankful , ive never shown my gratitude always in a bad mood , im sorry for my attitude sorry if i been rude and never acted how i should im grown up but i always had the food in the table,and you'r waiting for me but i never understood how good you were,when you always been there when i was sick,when i was dumb, when i was a prick when nobody even cared and didnt give a shit you would heal me, and hear me but i was a brick cuz i never said thanks,but now this is it im writin how i feel , and this will cause a hit now i get the chance to say it: THANK YOU nothin but a queen , mom, thats how i rank you if i could just sit and admit that im so wrong said that im pissed, why you acting like you know nuttin? thought i exist,i thought livin was a biss will i be missed when my memories all gone? i know i promised that forever ill be by your side you see my eyes show the feeling that im tryna hide im feelin so sad, i wish that i was there to hold ya in my arms and show ya that i care forget my own destiny, what i was meant to be painted pictures are pictured, they'r nothin but just memories who's gonna mourn my death?its rough and it shivers me i love my dad, never told him that i did everything that you did for me when i was just a kid i could never thank you enough,i feel like a piece of shit for placing every blame on you,i feel so ashamed i do and i am so sorry for everytime i been rude to you cuz i know that im stubborn, i know that im cruel and i know that you love us , i know that you'r good but i just never understood never thought i ever could i just never realised i'd never get out of the wood i did things i never should do, just because i could now you'r talkin to my spirit your mind is stuck on my lyrics wishin i was by your side i wont even try to hide you was all my paradise and i dont mean to dramatize, but if i could just sit and admit that im so wrong said that im pissed, why you acting like you know nuttin? thought i exist,i thought livin was a biss will i be missed when my memories all gone? i know i promised that forever ill be by your side you see my eyes show the feeling that im tryna hide im feelin so sad, i wish that i was there to hold ya in my arms and show ya that i care Yeah, you know sometimes.. things may not.........just may not