REELIN´AND SHOCKING

so i´ve started just & got more & more nervous- the first time, in an unknown place, unknown peoples- so my mind created the emotion of stress & my hands began to tremble, my heart beated wild & introduced myself--& as i told about the last liveshow, which were the day,a lightfestival of, for claudia, her goodbye into the space & the 27.8. was the anniversary of the death of my uncle it made it not better & had to swallow tears.. cooosmiccc <3 to get the audience into an state of being "here" to find silence for all, & let go of the experiences, thoughts of this day...- ive let run an relaxed sound firstly- which i did not was sure, if they will take this- i dont know aw, if they have silent moments in their life, practice medidation or..?? & also the bar business moved on at the same time, but they were silent as it is possible, too - after intuition i began to read- & to live again some emotions. its craze, sometimes, when i do read, first then i recognize, what i´m reading, offering others.. noticing this combined with this emotion leads really into an orgasm of feeling-& my expression. mostly into a STOP, a pause, barriere of text & TEARS - its like living this happening again through, & sometimes i am more cool or not so cool (: (its interesting, i wonder about myself-) then i am so very happy glad about the sound, i can play- to ease my feeling, state or wound or everwhat...& ive danced- NOT THAT UNRESTRAINED i want to be able- but yeah.. & many things ive wanted to say, i did not & some things ive added on this saturDay yet, ive read. happy that i have & can write so much things :D hehe in the hope, that all what i have to say, to share, is serving also for the highest good of all & for me! by intuition ive finished the show & danced along--with some other dudes <3 THANK YOU! some feedback from diverse peoples, some who knew me & from some did not: " very very good* you´ve really touched my heart, you grandma with a soul & reading like a 12 year old one, go on stayin alive <3* very crazy-but superfine *i had to hide tears in my eyes when youve read about love & merlin* i really will get stuff with me into my home, it is strange, it is nearly like voyeur- to see you private in your living room* i´ve seen a lot of readings in my life through my job, but you are different, its just like you are hmm...how to say, authentic, you are just living it, saying it, not playing a role or so.. but you are dangerous. for the audience & yourself -why? you show everything from you, you are now like touchable..& ive had tears in my eyes, & also you- but this i dont want to :/ to make people cry, flo! - no its not that, it is, you touch the hearts" AAUUHHHWWW hm, yea, these are my first steps into a new future, new experience in my life. how i will, can reach people & do shows ?? is this my way my wish? i only know, that this celebrates my heart& soul somehow! i am a master who is practising- AND YOU YOU, TOO!, MASTER! "you´ve started this evening with your music set & set the peoples into emotions, girl, well done, thanks!" :D the crowd got increased meanwhile after then, pretty good artists made their show & it was just a very fine summerparty in the unknown at a beautiful space on mother earth in kromsdorf, near weimar in germany , where we´ve met superlovely unknowns celebrating one <3 merci! unfortunately you´ll listen not much english or turkish.. in the radio it is different but..