Refusing to Disappear: Life with Schizoaffective Disorder with Sarah An Myers | RDID; 209

“If I don’t communicate, I feel like I’m disappearing.” This is a bedrock principle that guides Sarah An Myers in her advocacy for schizoaffective disorder, her writing, and her life. She refuses to disappear, she refuses to be silent, she refuses to let others speak for her. Sarah An Myers lives with schizoaffective disorder, a mental illness that combines aspects of a thought disorder (hallucinations, delusions, psychosis) with symptoms of a mood disorder (mood instability, depressive or manic episodes). While schizoaffective disorder is an undeniable component of who Sarah is, she is so, so much more than her mental illness. She writes constantly, giving people a window into her unique and nuanced perspectives about mental illness and other topics, she lives independently, she cares for her dog, she takes fencing lessons, she travels around the world. Sarah's life is as bold and vibrant as the striking pink coat she wears in the film we made about her called "Thriving with Schizoaffective Disorder". In this episode of Recovery Diaries in Depth, our host, Gabriel Nathan, is joined not just by Sarah An Myers, but by filmmaker Glenn Holsten who directed that film about Sarah's life with schizoaffective disorder. In this vulnerable, intriguing three-way conversation, Gabe, Glenn, and Sarah talk about the creative process of documentary filmmaking, and Recovery Diaries' collaborative approach to creating a piece like "Thriving with Schizoaffective Disorder." Glenn and Sarah really worked as a team, both in pre-production conversations and during the shoot to create moments that felt authentic to Sarah's experience, like a subway shoot to let viewers see and hear what it is like to hallucinate, and an in-studio recording session where actors read aloud some of Sarah's auditory hallucinations.Sarah speaks openly about what the experience was like, both making the film and then her anxiety upon its release. She also shares some of her very important views about the infantilization of psychiatric patients, the role medication has played in her life and recovery, and the work she is doing now. You won't want to miss this conversation with some extraordinary and creative human beings, doing vital work to de-stigmatize mental illness in new, original ways.About Sarah:Sarah An Myers is a writer, mental health advocate, and creative living in New York City. She writes a column on Psychology Today about psychotic disorders, reporting on the latest and cutting-edge research to combat stigma. She has written for human rights, freethinking, psychiatry, and literary publications including Free Inquiry, The Brooklyn Rail, Open Minds Quarterly, Psychiatry at the Margins, and more. She earned her MA in behavioral neuroscience from the University of Missouri-St. Louis and her MFA in creative nonfiction from The New School. She recently finished a literary memoir on living with schizoaffective disorder and is looking for an agent. Find her on social media @sarahanmy. Conversations like the ones on this podcast can sometimes be hard, but they’re always necessary. If you or someone you know is struggling, please consider visiting wannatalkaboutit.com. If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please call, text, or chat 988.https://recoverydiaries.org/