Road update, remembering the passing of my brother Gideon, songs & the mystery of the Holy Spirit

In my most random and deep episode yet, I go from a quick road update for 5-6 minutes, then I get into remembering my 16-year-old brother Gideon, who passed away in January, 2023. The episode ends with my describing why I don't like being a worship pastor, the mystery of "ushering in the Holy Spirit," and struggling with doing what I think God might want me to do versus what I know I really like to do.