S1:E24 Could I Become Her Without It?

A few years ago we had family pictures taken. And I remember that morning thinking about who I wanted to be in those photos. Fun. Relaxed. Patient. Playful. Fully present.And then I thought... I know exactly how to become that version of myself.I poured a glass of wine. And honestly I did not even sip it. I chugged it. Because the purpose of that glass was never to enjoy it. It was to make me feel something. To make me become something I did not know how to be on my own.That is the story I believed. In order to be the ideal version of myself... I needed wine to do it.In this episode I share the moment everything shifted. Sitting at a girls night out with a margarita in my hand. Watching what alcohol had almost cost someone I loved deeply. And asking myself one question I could not stop thinking about.Could I become the person this drink is making me feel like... without it?But this episode is not really about alcohol. It is about whatever YOUR thing is. The thing you use to cope. To numb. To become who you wish you already were naturally. Because every single one of us has one.Scrolling. Sugar. Food. Overworking. Cleaning. Helping everyone around you so you never have to sit still long enough to feel your own feelings. Painkillers. Porn. Television.Every single one of us is on a scale of dependence with something. And most of us know what ours is. We just keep looking away from it.In this episode I talk about the log and the speck — why it is so much easier to focus on someone else's habit than to look honestly at our own. And I ask the question I want you to sit with today.Could you become her without it?What we cover:The family photo shoot story and the glass of wine Leslie chugged to become the mom she wanted to beThe moment at girls night that changed everythingWhy this episode is not just about alcohol — it is about whatever your thing isThe full list of habits and substances we use to numb cope and become who we wish we already wereThe log and the speck — why we focus on everyone else's habit instead of our ownWhat Leslie found on the other side of giving up alcohol nine years agoThe one question to sit with todayA note before you listen:If what comes up for you feels heavier than a habit — if it feels like something you genuinely cannot control or stop even when you want to — please reach out to a doctor, therapist, or trusted person in your life. That is not weakness. That is one of the bravest things you can do.Your tiny step from this episode:Name your thing. Write it down. Even if you burn it afterward. Because you cannot get curious about something you have not named.Visit lesliebegin.com/guides for Leslie's free guide to process through this with the Lord.Grab your free Everyday Comeback Guide + join the newsletter: lesliebegin.myflodesk.com/comebackConnect with Leslie:📱 Instagram: @lesliebegin📧 Email: [email protected]🎙️ Subscribe to Dare to Begin wherever you listen to podcastsKeywords: sober curious women, giving up alcohol, women's wellness podcast, health coach, everyday comeback, coping mechanisms and health, could I become her without it, Leslie Begin, dare to begin, comeback mindset, alcohol and motherhood, wine culture moms, sobriety story, numbing emotions, food and scrolling addiction, faith and sobriety, women and alcohol