S1:EP34 Midnight Series, Between Desire and Guilt: Finding Our Place in the Body of Christ

Welcome back to the Midnight Series, where the conversations are honest, the reflections run deep, and faith meets real life. In this episode, McKenzie and Rebecca begin with a few life updates before moving into a deeper conversation about desire, guilt, calling, and what it means to live faithfully with the life God has given you. From there, the conversation turns toward February’s theme: connection to the body. What began as a focus on physical awareness slowly unfolded into something deeper...a conversation about desire, limiting beliefs, prayer, and the subtle ways we “should” ourselves out of the lives we long for. They talk about the small shifts that revealed bigger patterns. Eating more meals at home and noticing how restaurant food affected their bodies. Paying attention to headaches and energy levels. Slowing down enough to notice what the body is actually saying. Through therapy exercises and honest reflection, they explore the challenge of naming desires that feel off-limits, including the complicated question of whether they want more children and what beliefs might be shaping that answer. The conversation widens into bigger themes of materialism, privilege, and calling. What does it mean to hold good things without guilt? How do we grieve suffering in the world while still receiving the blessings in our own lives? Together, they wrestle with the tension between sadness and guilt, and what it looks like to use what you have—your home, your resources, your gifts—in service of others. They also reflect on the beauty of the body of Christ: a community where people are called to serve in different ways, through different gifts, and in different seasons. In this episode, they unpack: February’s focus on connection to the body Eating at home and noticing physical responses to food Therapy exercises around naming hidden desires Wrestling with the question of more children Limiting beliefs and the pressure of “should” Materialism, privilege, and humility Hosting and home as places of fellowship Guilt versus sadness in the face of suffering Using blessings as a way to serve others The body of Christ and different callings If you’ve ever struggled with wanting something while wondering if you’re allowed to… If you’ve wrestled with gratitude, guilt, or the tension of having more than others… If you’re learning that desire itself might be something God wants to speak through… This episode offers space to wrestle with those questions honestly. Sometimes faith isn’t about suppressing desire. Sometimes it’s about bringing it to God and asking what He wants to do with it. Episode Timeline: 00:00 – Midnight Series intro 00:32 – Dad’s birthday and sourdough bagels 02:12 – Family weekend catch-up 04:02 – Kids entering the sports era 06:13 – Barnes & Noble book signing highlights 09:17 – Publisher updates and uncertainty 09:53 – Renovation surprises 11:11 – Moving to Greensboro plans 13:55 – February recap and shifting desires 15:15 – Eating at home and noticing body signals 18:44 – Desire list exercise 21:29 – Faith and the question of more children 26:09 – Materialism and humility 33:13 – Home as a place of fellowship 34:39 – Privilege and guilt 37:03 – Using blessings to serve 45:50 – Guilt versus sadness 57:27 – Many ways to give 01:00:57 – One body, many parts 01:04:44 – Closing reflections Connect with Moms With A Call: Join the conversation with McKenzie + Rebecca on Instagram, Facebook, TikTok, & YouTube → @momswithacall Get show updates, behind-the-scenes moments, and more at www.momswithacall.com Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts: Apple, Spotify, YouTube, and Amazon. Leave a review and let us know how this episode moved you—your words mean more than you know. If you or someone you know has a story of faith, healing, or redemption that could encourage others, we’d love to hear from you. Reach out to us at [email protected] Intro + Outro Music by Jason Bowles Branding + Design by dvoorheisdesigns.com