S4 – EP15 – “I Don’t Know Where to Go for Comfort Now”: Corinne Longland-Malam on Sudden Loss, Trauma and Surviving After Lee

In this episode Rosie Moss speaks with Corinne Longland-Malam, known online as the “Fairy Grief Mother,” about losing her partner Lee after a rare and devastating illness turned their lives upside down in the space of months.Corinne shares the story of meeting Lee “very romantically on Facebook,” falling quickly into a relationship that felt less like fireworks and more like finally feeling safe. Together they built a blended family, a quiet life, and the kind of love rooted in contentment, companionship and being fully yourself with another person.Everything changed when Lee was diagnosed with cardiac amyloidosis caused by myeloma, a rare condition affecting both the heart and blood. What follows is a brutally honest conversation about sudden illness, complicated treatment decisions, and the impossible balance between hope and reality.Corinne speaks candidly about becoming Lee’s advocate while trying to protect their children, the trauma of repeated cardiac arrests at home, and the night he died beside her after another emergency. She describes performing CPR, waiting for the coroner, making impossible phone calls, and the surreal practical reality of grief in its earliest hours.Rosie and Corinne also talk about what comes afterwards: the secondary losses that ripple through blended families, being forced to leave the home they shared, parenting while grieving, and using TikTok as an outlet for pain that felt too raw to share anywhere else.This episode covers:• Falling in love after difficult past relationships and finding safety in another person• Cardiac amyloidosis and myeloma, including missed symptoms and delayed diagnosis  • The emotional impact of rare illness and navigating uncertainty around treatment• Advocacy, medical trauma, and protecting loved ones from frightening realities• Cardiac arrests at home, CPR, and the shock of sudden death• Parenting grieving children while trying to survive your own grief• Wills, legal planning, and the practical chaos that follows loss• Social media, community, and why sharing grief online can sometimes feel safer than doing it face to face• Rebuilding safety, identity and family life after losing your person