Searching for Christopher Robin: How it All Began

In Episode 3 of Searching for Christopher Robbin, I revisit the earliest memories that stayed with me—the moments where childhood shifted, and life no longer felt stable or safe.This episode focuses on my first reliable memory and a series of life-changing events that occurred around the age of five, beginning with a move from a farm to an apartment. It wasn’t just a change of location—it meant leaving behind real friendships, familiarity, and a sense of belonging that had already formed.In this episode, I reflect on:My first reliable childhood memoryMoving at age five from a farm to an apartmentLosing long-term friendships, not just classmatesWalking through a working sawmill at age five or six to get to schoolThe story of two kittensThe beginning of mental and emotional abuseWitnessing my first experience with adult violenceThe bowling ball fightMoving back to my hometown shortly after, less than one year later, still in first gradeMy first experience with trauma and manipulationThis episode explores how early disruption, fear, and exposure to violence began shaping my emotional world before I had the words to understand what was happening.I also begin answering an important question:How did these experiences impact me—and how do they still show up today?This is not a graphic or sensationalized episode.It is a reflection on how trauma can quietly take root in childhood and follow us into adulthood.⚠️ Content Warning: This episode includes discussion of childhood trauma and exposure to violence. Listener discretion is advised.The Search begins-Back to where it all began.