🎙️Season 2, Episode 2: I don’t have any good answers right now

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 2Title: I don’t have any good answers right nowDescription: It’s July 1st, and I’m sitting outside a packed Starbucks after a long day at the zoo. I gave Mansaray—a young man from Sierra Leone—his first video call, and now I’m wrestling. He asked for about $450 USD to pay for school fees. I’m torn. I don’t know if he’s telling the truth. I don’t know if giving would help or hurt him. And I don’t know what God is asking of me yet. But I’m here. Processing. Trying to walk slow, pray deep, and obey without forcing anything.I talk about:My video call with Mansaray, a beach boy from Sierra LeoneHis request for help and my uncertainty about how to respondThe challenge of discernment in cross-cultural givingMy internal pull between obedience, wisdom, and fearBeing invited into deeper rest—and feeling the effectsStruggling to balance motivation with peaceJust trying to let God lead, without pushing the outcome💡 Highlights & Timestamps:00:00 – Post-BMV reflections, tired and conflicted02:30 – Mansaray’s $450 school fee request and the risks involved05:45 – “What if I take him on as a mentor?”07:10 – Weighing generosity vs. enabling08:45 – “I’ve been living more relaxed… but less productive”10:00 – Wrestling with rest, drive, and what God actually wants📖 Scriptures Referenced:Matthew 25:44–45 – “When did we see you hungry or thirsty…?” (implied)🧠 Core Takeaway:Sometimes obedience looks like not having the answer yet—but still showing up.🙏 Closing Line:Crumb Confessional S2E2 — I don’t know what to do yet, but I’m listening.