🎙️Season 2, Episode 8a: I don’t want to model yelling for my kids

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 8aTitle: I don’t want to model yelling for my kidsDescription:It’s 5:08 AM on July 8, and I knew I’d have to record this one. I really didn’t want to. After a long day that ended with a family outing to the Reds game, I ended up yelling at my wife in front of our kids. I’m recording this for them—and for myself. I trace what led up to the moment, how I processed it afterward, and what I’m learning from the modeling I saw growing up. This one’s about pride, apology, and breaking generational patterns.I talk about:Going to the Reds game and remembering my old fandomHow a sweatshirt in the car triggered a full-blown meltdownYelling at my wife in front of our kidsFeeling justified in the moment but convicted afterwardRemembering how my dad yelled growing up and how normalized it feltSwallowing my pride and saying sorry that nightWanting to break cycles and model something better for my children💡 Highlights & Timestamps:00:00 – “I don’t want to do this confessional”05:52 – The Reds game, the rain delay, and an escalating bedtime moment13:10 – “I snapped” — yelling at my wife and the aftermath in the car20:15 – Reflections on modeling and what I saw growing up28:30 – Why I want to be a steady, emotionally grounded man36:44 – The part I didn’t want to face: saying sorry to my kids42:11 – Final prayer for healing, restoration, and generational change📖 Scriptures Referenced:Matthew 6:16–18 – “When you fast… do not look somber as the hypocrites do”Psalm 103:8 – “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger…”🧠 Core Takeaway:I want to model a better way for my kids—not just reacting out of what I saw growing up, but walking in emotional steadiness, repentance, and love.🙏 Closing Line:Crumb Confessional #52 — I never saw my dad say sorry for yelling. I want to be the one who does.