September 12th, 1999: What I've Been Learning

For episode 26, we're taking it back to the 90s!! 1999 to be exact, and it's right on time, cue Brandy and Monica! This short and sweet entry is exactly what I am feeling right now.  I called this entry "What I've Been Learning", and I am currently in a period of learning and development right now and it's for sure a blessing but also not super easy.  And it's me who's making it hard, that's also part of the lesson, but a hard thing to let go of. Hopefully this resonates with you too, because this is never just for me, there is def something in the air right now.  Key themes from reflection on this entry: · Periods of learning and how they feel going through vs how they are appreciated looking back. · Stop worrying about what others think, chyle! This one, it's such a different beast now than it was back in the day but it's also the same BS. Don't fall for the okie doke, don't believe the hype! · What would happen if I failed?  I had a professor once who called me an achievement junkie, in the nicest of ways but that resonated with my soul, and I still think about it often.  I am, and my addictions aren't above anyone else's just because I am rewarded for them.  The pathology is the same.  Now, this has served me well, very well and I would not change this aspect of me but understanding in every moment than I am more than what I do or can achieve is an active and intentional process for me.  I am worthy just because I am, and not just because of what I do or can do. · I am so secure in my stance on being single and taking time for me to heal from my last relationship and truly no desire to be in one right now because of my focus right now and being in love with my dreams. Honestly, I think more people need to slow down between relationships and heal and then ENJOY themselves, I am in that stage, I really like who I am and my life right now, I don't feel like anything is missing except maybe more freedom and I hold the keys to that.   Part of being a Queen is fulfilling your God given destiny.  We have to trust ourselves and carry out the vision God gave us, with courage and an unapologetic urgency and grace. What are part of your destiny are you putting on the back burner despite knowing you need to move on it? Are you overthinking what you think people think about you? – If so stop. Who do you really want to be and how do you need to spend your time to reflect that? Author, poet, spoken word artist and emcee Opal Ellyse has been keeping handwritten journals since 1995.  Each week she shares an entry and ties it to current events and relevant topics of conversation.  Royalty is living in your legacy while you're still here.  Understanding your past and bridging it to the present (and future) is a gift.  Join Opal as she shares wisdom from the past as it becomes present day epiphany and a blueprint for all that is next.  Enjoy! www.opalellyse.com Music: DJ Pain 1