She Lost Herself Until She Found What Changed Everything

What happens when the life you built shatters - your child is struggling, your marriage is crumbling, and you realize you’re starting to sound like the parent who hurt you most?In this powerful conversation, Julie joins Walt and JodieLynn to share how losing herself became the doorway to everything she was truly here to be.From the start, Julie frames her journey as a path to becoming an “empowered matriarch” - someone who knows her worth and holds her seat at the table of her own life. She describes how we’re all born with inherent worth, but soon “protectors” take their place at our inner table: old patterns, trauma, ancestral fear. They tell us they’re keeping us safe, but really, they’re keeping us small.A pivotal moment came with the birth of Julie’s second daughter - highly sensitive, reactive, violent at times, and struggling with night terrors and strange inflammation. While other moms around her were exhausted but generally okay, Julie was being pushed past every limit she thought she had.One day, her young daughter slammed her toddler brother’s fingers in a door. Julie snapped. She screamed. She swore. In that instant, she recognized her own mother’s abusive patterns coming through her - something she never wanted to repeat. “This isn’t who I am. This isn’t who I’m here to be.”That breakdown became a begging-for-tools moment. Julie turned to metaphysical practices she’d always been drawn to - Reiki, yoga, meditation, energy healing, and slowly began to respond instead of react. Yoga, especially, became sacred ground where she could “find herself again.”Then came level 10: betrayal and the end of a nearly 20-year marriage. Faced with the option of staying in a loveless but “cushy” arrangement, Julie asked herself a brutal question: “Where is my worth?”Choosing divorce meant four years of excruciating pain - a “death in many ways.” But on the other side, she realized she could never again accept the version of herself who had tolerated that life.This led her to create The Orenda - a mind, body, spirit approach that uses movement, color, intention, and energy to help people reconnect to their essence. Orenda is about putting tools on the table so others can claim their worth too.Throughout the conversation, Walt presses into a key question: Why do some people hit crash-and-burn moments and grow, while others refuse to do the inner work?Julie offers a multi-layered answer: soul contracts, fear of the unknown, lack of tools, and a culture that trains us to live in our heads instead of our heart-brain and gut-brain. She explains how meditation and breath shift us out of fear and into intuition, while Jodi Lynn adds vivid examples from working with horses and energy.One of the most powerful takeaways comes from JodieLynn’s reflection: “When you know your worth, you’ll never settle for less.”Julie’s work, JodieLynn notes, is like changing the crystalline structure of our inner water through words, color, and intention - transforming us from the inside out.By the end, Walt closes with a heartfelt acknowledgment on behalf of all the people Julie will never meet, but has already helped: “You’re making a difference in this world.”This conversation is an invitation and a challenge: Where are you still letting old protectors sit at your table? What pain are you willing to alchemize into worth, wisdom, and a new life?Because once you truly know your worth, staying small stops being an option.LOA Today Episode Page: https://www.loatoday.net/julie-feldmanJulie Feldman's Website: https://www.aurenda.us/Follow the LOA Today podcast:  https://www.loatoday.net/follow#lawofattraction#manifesting#vibration#podcast#deliberatecreators#Q&A#waltthiessen#jodielynncraven#loatodayapp#YourDailyDoseOfHappy#SelfWorth #HealingJourney #EmpoweredMatriarch #ConsciousParenting #EnergyHealing #Reiki #YogaLife #Breathwork #InnerWork #SpiritualAwakening #Orenda #TraumaHealing #DivorceRecovery #WomenEmpoweringWomen