Sonia Iris Lozada - Awakening Dreams: A Poet's Struggle

Writing poetry has been a passion of mine ever since I learned how to write. However, for the past couple of years, I have been determined to complete my next book in the Inspire Me Series, titled "Inspire Me: Awakening Dreams." Lately, though, my thoughts have been clouded and focused on sci-fi short stories instead. My goal is to finish this poetry book by summer so that I can fully dedicate myself to the short stories. It's strange how my writing habits have changed - from writing multiple poems a week to only one a month. Perhaps it's due to the pandemic, or the loss of my mother and close friend soon after. Strange Thing Grief, is the title of one of my upcoming poems, referring to how grief has affected all aspects of my life. Simple things are no longer simple. Writing poetry used to be therapeutic for me, but lately my emotions have been too heavy to express through writing. This poem, "Bound," is from my previous book Inspire Me Series: Book 1 & 2 and is a glimpse into  my upcoming collection. Bound Sorrow sweeps through my soul like The sword of yesteryear Waves of sorrow smash upon my heart Reminding me of you Of your love Of your kindness I drown in the eventual stillness, gasping for air Why was life so unfair to you? But it's me who doesn't let go It's me who feels guilty for not suffering your loss longer If I hold on to that feeling, then the memory Of you doesn't slip away Miss the feeling of our etheric touch I dreamt of seeing your soul last night but I had tied a rope to it You kept trying to fly away But I kept pulling you back—You turned to me, broken Today I cry and let you go—release you from the earth plane The rope unties and I see your smiling soul fade away   Music by Gotama: Take a Break