Stephan Nance — Fall

I saw you again For the first time in ages You looked just the same But you sounded so different Your manner of speaking and The tone of your voice Were so changed. If I were a bird I’d have fluttered away But as I don’t have wings I was required to stay In my place at the register Ringing you up In the most awkward way In that stupid café... I saw you again For the first time in ages You looked just the same But you sounded so different Your manner of speaking and The tone of your voice Were so changed. And I’d never seen that shirt before And I’d never seen that bag before And I shouldn’t want to see you more Often, but I do... And I’d never seen that scarf before And I’d never seen that hat before And I shouldn’t want to see you more Often, but I do, I do, I do... It’s been a whole year. It’s been twelve whole months. The innumerable minutes— I counted each one. In a manner of speaking I still really love you And I can’t get you, can’t get you Out of my head. I’ve spent all this time In extensive reflection And in my recollection The things that I said Were gratuitous In their emotional content And I’m sorry If saying them scared you away. I shouldn’t have acted the way that I acted I shouldn’t have called you I should have retracted The things that I said At the moment I said them Or better yet I should’ve never been born. I should have retracted The things that I said At the moment I said them I shouldn’t have called you I shouldn’t have acted the way that I acted I need to be punished I need to be punished I need to be punished I need to be punished... Every thought inside my head Is suddenly exploding; Every object in my room Is suddenly too dull; Everything I feel inside my heart Is fully inappropriate; Every object in my room Is suddenly too dull... There’s only a window there Only a window there Only a window, only a window (You can do it you can do it you can do it you can do it) There’s only a window, only a window, only a window, only a window there… There’s only a window there Only a window there Only a window, only a window (You can do it you can do it you can do it you can do it) There’s only a window, only a window, only a window, only a window there… ... There’s only a window there Only a window there Only a window, only a window (You can do it you can do it you can do it you can do it) There’s only a window, only a window, only a window, only a window there… There’s only a window there Only a window there Only a window, only a window (You can do it you can do it you can do it you can do it) There’s only a window, only a window, only a window, only a window there… There’s only a window there Only a window there Only a window, only a window (You can do it you can do it you can do it you can do it) There’s only a window, only a window, only a window, only a window there… I close my eyes and In my memories, I’m drowning in your coat; I’m gathering the leaves that fall... In my memories, I’m drowning in your coat... I’m just jumping in the leaves that fall.... credits from A Troubled Piece of Fruit, released 23 July 2012 Stephan Nance, piano/vocals Tim McLaughlin, bass/guitar