Still I will not curse her name

Still I will not curse her nameSo many days I wrote of hopes and dreams, only to learn itwas all just a charadeUpside down where nothings as it seems, until I’m cold Iwill regret everything I paidWere it only money siphoned across our time, one day bygrace of God I could recoupInside my mind is the scene of the crime, and it plays adnauseum on an endless loopStill I will not curse her name, nor speak it again lest shegain fame, this ends the gameI’m editing my mind, rewinding the past and carefully clippingyou out frame by frameStill I will not curse her nameUnlike you I will not tell a lie while I grin, I cherishthose memories I’ve yet to makeWith my grandkids I would not tell a sin, your past regressionsdemand a heavy stakeYou have made an indelible stain on your soul, whilecrushing the heart that gave you aidFor a short term gain you destroyed your goal, on judgementday you’ll atone for the bed you madeStill I will not curse her name, nor speak it again lest shegain fame, this ends the gameI’m editing my mind, rewinding the past and carefully clippingyou out frame by frameStill I will not curse her nameOne day my time here will surely close, those coming behindme will read my writingIf there’s a lesson to find it’s that I chose, turn theother cheek, it’s not the time for fightingMatters of the heart that flow in one direction, withcunning and deceit lurking in towDiffer little from any other bodily infection, love doesn’tlive where honesty doesn’t goStill I will not curse her nameToo much time was spent as it is, money too; time is too preciousto waste on the undeservingLife continues and that chapter is through, just another oneof the pitfalls that keep you swervingDodge the ones you can, ride out the rest; hope for a happyending that you can shareSort your memories and hang on to the best, keep on hopingfor someone who will careStill I will not curse her nameLet it witherTim Windisch4 29 2026