Suffering for Endurance that Develops Character

I never felt like I was failing at motherhood until my third pregnancy was followed by a debilitating chronic illness the same year my husband spent his career traveling, leaving me to solo-parent all three of our kids. ALL I DID WAS LIE IN BED AND WATCH THE ROOM SPIN DREADING THE MOMENT ONE OF THE SMALL VOICES WOULD CALL OUT TO ME-- BECAUSE I COULDN’T COME, EVEN IF I TRIED. MY HOUSE FELL TO PIECES. BELIEVING IT WOULD END “ANY DAY NOW”, WE MADE THE BEST OF IT. And really that just meant that I accepted my struggle as my reality...something I could not change. After 5 months I finally saw a fork in the road: Continue barely surviving and enduring tremendous guilt over all the moments I was missing. Or Do something! EVERYTHING CHANGED THE DAY I CHOSE TO DO SOMETHING… I was declared “recovered” because I could stand up and move around. I could see straight enough to leave the house but not quite well enough to drive. One day, a woman, not yet a mom, came by my house for her produce delivery and she said- "how do you do it all with this condition you have?" And another, a mom this time, said, "You know, God is trying to get your attention. You need to listen!" And she was right. All the years I had been listening and serving moms in my community. I got asked all the time, "How do you do it all and won’t you show me how?" And I did. So what was I missing this time? But in that moment, all I felt was cheated and angry. So I took pen to paper (and by that, I mean, I wrote a blog.) I set it all out for moms to see. This is what it takes for me to “do it all.” And I addressed it to them all - the “wannabe SuperMoms”. I’ll admit, my heart wasn’t right when I shared it all that night. But what came next, was all part of God’s plan. https://www.crunchysupermom.com/latest https://www.facebook.com/groups/crunchysupermoms