Surrendering Your Pain

“For as the days of a tree, so will be the days of my people; my chosen ones will long enjoy the work of their hands. They will not labor in vain, nor will they bear children doomed to misfortune; for they will be a people blessed by the Lord, they and their descendants with them.” Isaiah 65:22b-23 (NIV) Into my adult years, my relationship with my mom struggled. She had been to residential school and, right from my youngest years, her mothering skills were very poor . . . almost nonexistent. When I eventually got around to asking her to forgive me for my bitterness towards her, she said, “Okay.” I tried many times to talk to her after that. Whenever it looked like we might be able to talk things out, she would start crying. I so wanted to bring closure to things. My mom always struggled to hug and struggled to say, “I love you.” It wasn’t until her later years that I was finally able to tell her, “I love you, Mom. I forgive you.” My mom accepted the Lord as her Savior and, over the years, she had learned to laugh. She held her grandchildren with delight. I thought I had released the bitterness, and brought closure to our lives. About two or three days after my mom’s passing, however, I was sitting alone when I felt some unresolved forgiveness still festering. I cried out to Jesus to truly help me to forgive her. The peace that overwhelmed me was so meaningful! At Mom’s funeral, I had shared the importance of forgiveness to whoever would listen. Being at peace means surrendering your pain to God. Let Him deal with it. — Richard Knott   Council Fire is a collaboration with Intertribal Life Ministries and Native Evangelical Fellowship of Canada. The Council Fire Daily Devotional Book Set is available on the Intertribal Life Ministries website. Learn more about Council Fire at councilfire365.org