Susanna Fournier - Thought #12 - Calm Before the Storm

This week feels like the calm before the storm. Quiet but intense. I'm having a hard time getting things done. I'm pacing, disorganized, unable to focus, feel on high alert, bitten all my nails. It took me about 3 hours to get dressed today. I have the strong desire to flee. Brendan Healy recently talked to me about a Vincent Miller book, "A Crisis of Presence" I haven't read it yet, the title is enough for me right now. Fight of flight. I do both. When it feels really hard to be present, when my fear is very very very high, I know the fight is with myself - to stay. Stay in this moment, don't disassociate, don't flee, don't look away. We open next week.