terra | i want you to always be available to me

At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship.**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.**quotes“I found myself leaning into the attention whenever I would get it. And then when the attention would stop, I would seek it out.” - Terra“…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra“With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra“It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra“I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terramusic | soundsMusic (CC BY 4.0):Lost Place Atmospheres (001 - 003) and Neon City by Sascha EndeVery Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Cybercutie, AlesiaDavina, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from PixabaySpacetime by Mountaineerstay aware | follow | share (terra)https://seasonofjustice.orghttps://www.terranewellsurvival.comNational Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotlinehttps://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/I'll Take The Stairs Merch 25% of Sale Proceeds go to Season of Justice!https://www.terranewellsurvival.com/shop/page/2/Book a 1 on 1 call! HTTPS://linktr.ee/terranewell Sign up for the podcasting course! https://coaching.terranewellsurvival.comAugust 5th Moving Past Trauma Course https://coaching.terranewellsurvival.com/moving-past-trauma-5-week-workshop/Join Terra in Sedona September 13th-16th 2024! Email [email protected] Terra’s 30 Day Trauma Journalhttps://square.link/u/DvXXYN27 Exclusive Content on Patreon!http://patreon.com/Terrasbaddyclubstory submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfearE-mail | [email protected] | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/subscription linksChartablehttps://link.chtbl.com/lovelustfearAmazon Musichttps://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfearSpotifyhttps://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWecApplehttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283RSS feedhttps://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rssWant to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review.Thank you for your support!