The 9PM Pattern: What You're Actually Running From

Have you ever asked yourself what you actually do at 9pm? Not what you wish you did. What you actually do when the day is done, the kid is in bed, and you are alone with yourself for the first time all day?In this episode I am getting honest about something most high achieving women never talk about publicly. The numbing. Not rock bottom stories. Not addiction cautionary tales. The subtle, sophisticated, invisible ways smart, deeply feeling women stay exactly where they are.I share the moment at a retreat in Portugal that cracked everything open for me. I walk you through the four forms of numbing I have seen again and again in my own life and in my work with clients. And I tell you something I have never said this clearly before: I want to be high on life. That is why I am sober.This episode is not about stopping anything. It is about noticing. And the noticing is where everything starts.In this episode:Why numbing is not weakness but intelligence and what is actually happening in your nervous systemThe four forms smart women use most: substance, action, people and overthinkingWhy overthinking is underfeeling and what that costs youThe Rumi guest house and why your feelings are not your enemy but your guidance systemWhy when you numb the bad feelings you also numb the good onesWhat numbing is really trying to tell you about the life that is calling you forwardThis week's practice:At 9pm, before you reach for the thing, pause. Just thirty seconds. Ask your body: what am I actually feeling right now? Feel it first. Then decide.This week's question:What feeling am I most consistently running from? And what do I think would happen if I stopped?Ready to go deeper?DM me AUDIT on Instagram @nadjaloveslife and I will send you the free 12/10 Life Audit, an honest look at every area of your life so you can see exactly where you are settling and where you are already living it.Find me here:Instagram: @nadjaloveslife