And we're back part two of the argument random conversations with Rodriguez Pal so anyways, I think what every I think everybody cool with me. That's what you said something like that just now Hello, what happened right? I well, I said it for the podcast. So what did you say?
I said she think everybody thinks she cool So who is everybody who is everybody I think think I'm sorry Please 70% of America problem you any give a moment for what because I'm black Okay Older cuz I'm not young she black I gotta bail in front. I got a food book. She black. I got a food book I got a food black older and she's got a food book So what would be the problem with me, you know music and me doing me?
What are you talking about? What do you say? We're done with that you've already explained Okay, now it's all right. I'm just like saying man, you know, you can't just keep stringing me up like Jimmy Fallon or some shit Like you just put me on you saying like I feel like I already got a star on the locker fan You are you already put me on the tonight show and all I said was you throw at me.
I mean yeah, I say that day see You didn't say I had talent what you said was is you don't see me on stage. You just see me being So why am I filming these videos? When did I do a booty dance anytime? So because that's what they do that's what I'm finna do What are you saying?
Oh, what are you just saying? Yeah, you gotta do a foot booty days to do what to reach some level of Celebiting is that you want me to reach or what? So what I gotta do that for why I gotta do anything like anybody else? Oh Do Missy turn it to a host Kenny bitch What else maybe she wanted to be healthy, okay?
So you say I didn't say anything. I said maybe she wanted to be I didn't say she wanted to be I said maybe she did I don't know for sure for facts why she lost me how she lost way when I remember what she did because the videos came out So what did you make you a small so yeah, you right? That bitch got skinny and all of a sudden was doing a booty dance What missing ain't never twerked She got that video where she did But okay, okay booty dance for you is just period bending over turn around and shaking your butt That's just a booty dance period. So just a booty dance in general like she can't just be like this or nothing That's just period is a booty dance if you're booty if you're focused on the ass more.
That's a booty dance That's what you're saying. Oh, that's what it was. Oh, no, I mean, maybe she shook her booty at the camera She's sure I ain't ever seen her like I never seen her in a thong I never seen her in a linger, right? Have you ever seen her in a lingerie with her booty cheeks out?
No, yeah Okay, so I'll get what you can like you can't put what you feel like don't happen with me on me Like you can't shine out on me. That's how you feeling how you feel and if you were listening to my ideas of what I write down and stuff Like that you would know a booty dance wasn't even involved in the plan So is you just sitting here and telling me about how I'm not right about you? So I don't get to expand upon that about myself else. So you just get to know you ask me one question and now I'm here And I'm like why doesn't even go like this?
I'm not getting that you are because when your eyes are found enough You said this the argument I'm not having an argument. We're talking about what you felt about how I don't think I see you dancing across the stage. Okay, okay, but I wanted you to know that my main focus is It'd be to be on stage. I can't tell you that But it just seemed like it's what you were saying to you like telling me about how I feel about a whole bunch of people I didn't tell you how you felt about a whole bunch of other people what I said was when what you're seeing since you see all these chicks That's what they're doing.
I'm saying that's what that's a sales out. That's what sales Period right and so you're letting me know don't try to walk if I'm trying to walk down that realm It's not gonna work out for me because I'm not visually appealing I'll say that that's not your character. So you don't think I know who my character is I said I don't think that's your character Okay, so how's that do you think that I think that that's my character? I don't know what you think Coming to room Character Tarena Cuz I can only be myself.
I can't be nobody else right, but I don't think you thought I knew that about me you don't think Now now I think you don't think that I thought but you're talking about album sales and I'm talking about being a producer I'm talking about producing for other people. You're talking about me creating my own album The only reason I made this album was to showcase my music production not to show that I want to be a star on the stage But you would know this if you ask me about it sometimes and I actually I talked to you about it until you all the time now Me seeing myself on stage That's just me being a chick and being a girl like you know when I visualize and I imagine and stuff like that and I'm listening to my songs And I'm getting that feeling on the inside is just like a daydream like if you clean in your house or if you play again You listen to music it's like thoughts run through your head So some of my thoughts are me sometimes yeah I am dancing having fun with a bunch of people or maybe I'm on stage or maybe I'm just in a video presence And I'm I got like clouds and stars and shit behind me like yeah, I visualize that I visualize like that Is what I'm saying, but if you want to know where I really want to take myself and what I really want to do I never ask you that either. That's where this is going well That's the reason that you feel like I want to do a booty dance and tell albums because you don't know what I want to do With my artistry like there's something like that. You feel like there's something they talked to me about and there's not That's all fuck I'm saying.
I don't understand why it's going there for And you letting it be something that is on your mind. It's not we're talking You don't want me to say nothing And how am I fucking frustrating you see now you pass it no because But you want me to take what you say You made me ask you questions Why the fuck does everything do it because I've never treated you like that Trinity like what anything you like that you think that I'm supposed to and I'm like no I said you think You should have been telling me what you think is what the fuck you say I was if she wants to sell albums She's gonna have to do the booty dance and all this shit, but I don't see her that way good I'm glad you don't see me that way because I'm not reaching for that Why can't I say that to you? Good, I'm not reaching for that. I'm reaching for music for do I'm reaching for that I'm glad to hear how you thought how you thought it was going or how you thought I thought But that's not what I was thinking and if you really you know instead of assuming and creating what you thought was cool You could have just asked me, but you didn't want to ask me You just wanted me to know that you don't see that for me and you don't want me to say nothing to it I'm like that.
Okay, I hear you. Okay fine. So damn I can't even speak. I can't even speak to you That's a for nothing as conversation.
Ask me for my baby. Yeah, you didn't like it When did I say I didn't like it? I didn't like it. I didn't dislike it.
I didn't like it I didn't dislike it. I didn't have no feelings towards it. I just felt I needed to tell you that well That's cool that you thought that way, but I'm not shooting for that But if you really wanted to know since we're a fucking couple you could have just asked like where do you see yourself? Do you see yourself as like unheated my knowledge type?
Do you see yourself? No, I don't you didn't know how I see myself I saw myself. So I don't know how to ask you that question They might even hard like it. No, you've asked the question I said what I gotta say and so I mean I don't understand why and so all I'm saying is whatever angles you want to take when you Ready for the video take them because that's why we're sitting here having this conversation because it was about the videos I'm creating so you said everything's been from my angles It ain't been under your stuff that you see for me or whatever like that So I'm gonna let you do what you see for me, but I guess you want to just feel like Like video for like like my music as a background or something I just told you I want to film whatever makes you you have that's not what you said and we got a fucking recording and so that's not All right, so now they got it now right now everything that I'm filming is to make you happy That's it.
That's all it's not it's not hard. It's not rocket science. Oh, I know it's film you doing Whatever it is you want to do. It's not hard.
It's not hard at all It's maybe a couple hours out of my life There's not as if I had something better to do that time so I mean I ain't mad at that. Oh, I'm doing it. It was saying these are things and then It turns into something that feels like feels like an argument And you called it an argument. Yeah, yeah, yeah, and it still does and so for me It's just like I mean, you know, you know, it's like it's like you just find what we sit in here doing nothing Watching you playing your fucking game and she's like I'll talk to you about anything you want to discuss and say shit about it It only happens because of you though it's not happening because I can have these conversations with anybody and I have a argument And then we should we turn it to your feelings get involved.
I'm talking to you like you're not a man Why do I need to explain anything to you? In front of you, you're like, no, that's not that's not even what we will talk about your angle wasn't no fence and I'm like Great Over What you showed me That it was it that should be so done. That should be so done when you showed me that one the problem It's okay. Oh, you're right.
Yeah, right there. Oh, you're the one who said that all the angle that you got are my angles Not mine not sure what you said. They're all my angles. Not sure angles.
Did it just say that? Okay, then From that it came to okay You do your visuals how do you visualize me? You Nothing from you to do with you. Okay, you feel me?
I keep telling you that you showed me that it wasn't and I agree Okay, then once we got that wasn't even on the podcast though. We talked about the show on the podcast Yeah, I know it wasn't when we started talking about that finish that was way before that you're mixing up the moment You're mixing up the moment straight up that have it way before Well, we talk about angles What am I you say all the angles that we shot where my angles not yours? And that's how we got on how you visualize me? Because I wasn't using your angles you say it on using all my angles all those angles everything you took everything that was Yeah, you know how to use your angles Showed up by iPhone I say well, why do I give a fuck then right?
I'm doing is doing what you're asking me to do and that's what I said I would do and you're still trying to tell me something about I don't know what the fuck About there's nothing else to talk about man. I said I'll do the fuck you needed me to do Especially once it seems so easy. It was harder before now is now and then you still sitting there telling me that I got a problem With your shit. I got married.
I didn't say you had a problem. I just say you dislike it I didn't say none of this shit You just taking Conjuring up together because you don't like what I'm saying if you listen to you look if you can Father but you get though you know what I took everything you said to me took it took it like a grain of salt took it Listen to you so did you I got the talking and you didn't want to hear me no more. It was my time to shut the fuck up What would the fuck you have to say exactly that's what I'm saying I can't say it because you're like what is it you have to say to me you shouldn't have said to say it you shouldn't You should all right. I'm talking with the fuck you won't it.
I don't want nothing. I don't want nothing I don't want nothing. I don't understand somebody can get what they want. It's still be angry That shit don't even fucking make sense It really don't what like I'm sitting over here holding some footage on you Yeah, right.
That's what she was talking about that fucking footage that shit is sitting right there. What the fuck? You like the like you ain't got access to the shit You pull in some strings that ain't there That's all there is to that Footy sitting right there Why you not got there for you? Why you ain't got shit I ain't got footage of you and I ain't going shit for you.
Then what the fuck is you talking to me about? Nothing and there it goes Everybody can fucking double-dose that shit you like I'm doing something to you around this motherfucker You got me fucked up and you know you do you sit there fucking with you on the issue you act like I'm you're enemy You're fucking foot-in-shitting right there you got nothing but access to it But what you want to tell me is is you feel me? It's all kind of way. What are you talking about?
And I'm sitting here. What are you talking about? I'm wondering what are you talking about? What are you talking about?
Well, I'm not talking about anything. Oh, no You must be talking about something I ain't talking about something. No, you was just talking about something Anything against you. You're fucking idiot.
COVID really stolen to help people really are. It's really showing a true character Jealousy is real when you being yourself jealousy is real when you being yourself when you being yourself when you're confident Are you happy with yourself jealousy is a real drug is serious? It can happen right in your own home? Jealousy jealousy of your character jealousy of how you carry yourself jealousy of how you know You're not falling into everybody else's shit that causes jealousy And when a person is jealous of you, they'll say everything to you to kind of distract you and have you do things the way they want you to do But you can't do that shit You got to let them be a nay character and they skin and do that shit If you really love yourself and you really give a fuck about yourself if somebody else tell you they love you that shit Don't matter if they tell you they don't love you that shit don't matter Like real talk when you love yourself and people say you think you can do what you want Oh, you think people think you cool.
Oh, you think you popular. Oh, I don't even fuck with nobody I'm sitting at home by myself Trying to get something going in my life because I ain't never had shit going That's all I'm doing. I ain't causing no fights I ain't going out starting no dramas with people I ain't sitting up here talking about who I think I'm better than none of that shit And I'm telling you being real is a lonely motherfucker role when you real to yourself when you real to yourself When you real to yourself anybody else being real to you don't mean shit anybody else being not real to you don't mean shit Being real is a lonely motherfucker role. You got to be sure yourself You got to know you love yourself You got to know that God looking out at the universe looking out because people can have their opinions They can say whatever they want But just because that's how they visualize it and they see it that way that doesn't mean that that is what it is It's called perception and if that's the perception that somebody so close to me can have I will never be bothered by somebody who ain't close to me You know what I'm saying?
So therefore being real being yourself being able to not be afraid to get out there and show who you are being able to get out there Get your degrees sit up there and do all the hard work You need to do to make yourself something that you want it to be not make yourself special for your mom Or your daddy or your uncle your a t or your fiance Make yourself for you the best you that you could be for yourself is being yourself and whenever somebody try to come in and Impress their opinion up on you. You take it with a grain of salt You don't like it. You don't dislike it. You listen to it You hear it you understand it and if you can't just and if you want to you can let them know like okay Well, I was even for that well I wasn't but sometimes people don't want to hear in there when you're exuding that type of confidence in yourself That's intimidating to people because they like no you just that ghetto bitch You know you just like ghetto bitch, you know, you just need to like make money and work That's all you need to do it just like get a nine to five with this shit Don't try to do no special try to be big like JB I say type shit don't do that That's not for you.
That's not your area But who are they to tell you what your arena is who are they to tell you where you posted get down in the octagon It they can't tell you what your octagon is because they not in your shoes They're not in your mind They're looking at you from the outside because they see what you've been through they see with a family you come from They see that most of the stuff that you don't ever try to do ain't never be really been there for you But when they see you fighting fighting To keep your fucking head to do that shit no matter what the fuck somebody else said they hate it That's what the fuck a hater is a hater And then they hate to be put on that frustrate cuz they hate her That's what the hater is they dare to kind of Put the salt on you they dare to dump a little bit of salt on you That's what they're there for but what you're supposed to do is take that salt and put it on your favorite motherfucking food They eat That's what the fuck you supposed to do Because when a person don't want to hear what you got to say I mean they're not they're disliking what you say and they don't agree So they want you to shut the fuck up and they'll go through any means and say anything to you to get you to shut the fuck up They can't just accept it that nobody's gonna take things the way that I take it I take my punches to the face and they hate on me because I do it They hate on me because I'll stay on the fucking ground on fall. I take that shit. I take that shit It's mine. It's here for me to get It's here for me to get and jealousy is a mother fucker mother fucker Wishing that they had your character a mother fucker wishing that they could get they self out there and put they self out there To want to be somebody that they give a fuck about see a lot of y'all don't love yourself And you think you want somebody else to love you Look at somebody else loving you cool But you're not cool because that person has the love in they sell that bother you You want them to put all they love into you not into themselves But I cannot love you without loving myself first because if I didn't love myself I definitely could not be loving you We saved suit motherfucking reheated repeated and it's gonna be the same shit forever Ain't nobody gonna give a fuck about you as much as you give a fuck about yourself And don't never forget that shit don't never forget that shit.
I know it's hella women out there black women Black women it's our Kings letting us know we can't shoot for the stars. It's our Kings letting us know how it's not for us It's our teams telling us this shit and they get mad when a bitch don't want to believe it if all for it They get mad they say shut the fuck up. They say what the fuck is you talking about they say What do you mean? You know why cuz they don't want to hear you no more But I'm here to be heard it's the strength behind it that hurts them.
It's the power behind it that hurts them It's the strength the grip the gall the eggs the motivation Tell you right now if you chase in a dream chase that motherfucking dream I don't give a fuck if it's whimsical. I don't give a fuck if nobody never seen it heard of it It's all about it cauldron it up whatever it always puts some type of weirdness in them Awkwardness they get to feel it awkward, but you're not me. You're not this soul. You're not this vessel You're your own vessel do your be at your vortex You see what I'm saying So since I can't talk to a person that I went all the time showing my full self to I'm gonna talk to y'all Cuz maybe somebody'll feel what a fuck my heart is and where the fuck I'm coming from I'm not doing this music shit to be famous I'm not doing this music shit cuz I want to be beautiful I'm not doing this music shit because I want niggas looking at me.
I'm not doing this music shit just cuz I want to be rich I'm wealthy already because I've been lighting my life That's my will so I'm gonna lighten y'all on a person that maybe you never heard speech like this before You never heard a person that felt like this before you never heard a person come through with so much Domination before for themselves. I'm the ringleader of my life. I'm the ring master of my life. Nobody else's My children are my children.
I am their mother. I Got it down gave them information still do but their life is their life Wherever they want to go with it they can go be the best fucking at it I don't give a fuck what it is if you like it. I love it Black women Stand on your mother fucking heels told in ankles bitches Stop Don't give them your mother fucking tears. Don't give them your mother fucking love.
Don't give it to him Say what they say then don't watch they don't don't do it. Don't be strong. Don't do it Be it for you Don't be it for nobody else. Don't be strong for nobody be strong within you fuck that Fuck that I talked to y'all I come from some disturbing shit The sturbing but I wouldn't change my fucking life because of the bitch.
I am right now I'll probably be a weaker bitch. I probably have 15 niggas kids of some I'll probably be oh no no y'all can't get that up out of me weakness vulnerability Anger All of that shit is mine when I'm using it. I'm using it. You're not using it.
You're not controlling it I'm using it. I don't want to be pissed off. I don't want to be angry But you sit up here and people may like they can have conversations with you adult conversations Especially when they throw their opinion out there. They act like yeah, they handle they can handle it But then when you just want to speak back with the same Deliberate you know what to say like well, yeah, I get where I can see where you probably thought that I wanted to do that But I don't and then you just get to say it I see this and I see this for me and that any other so I say motherfucker you're not an artist of element You don't got the money to put me in artist of element.
You don't got the background You don't got the promotion. You don't know niggas with the background to get me out there So to say what I'm doing with my with all within myself with re-wrenching with what I have I'm going by my who I am as a person every time I look in that mirror I just say be yourself don't try to do nobody else be yourself be yourself be your self be tarina be tarina be tarina Be tarina that's it you ain't got to be no motherfucking body else, but her but she Me myself and motherfucking I I ain't got to put on my fucking twinkle because for nobody but myself And that's who I'm doing it for At first it was like yeah, I want my folks to be proud of me and I won't you know them to be happy somebody trying to do something they Family I don't give a fuck about none of that no more. I give a fuck about how I feel about me I give a fuck about what I think to do. I give a fuck about how I want to do things.
I Love all my people But I'm not operating and how they want me to operate because I don't have to It's a choice I'm not gonna have y'all leading me to a destination that I was supposed to go Motherfuckers act like they got all the information and all the facts all the information in effect because of what the fuck they are See Believe half of what you see none of what the fuck you here. It ain't my fault. I'm woke To the bullshit So I'm working on me only I'm not working on nobody else. I'm trying to fix nobody else Make your decisions for you Stop trying to control him manipulate and alter everybody else and be what the fuck it is you expect them to be They're born into what I made them and if they were more open in the brain and more open in the mind and I'm blind about his extra bullshit They be following their to God the divine path for themselves I'm not afraid to face you I'm not afraid to be myself People that are afraid to be thereself.
That's who have the opinions People who are afraid that they're never gonna be something that's who have opinions Because people that's working on their dreams don't have an opinion because the dream got a crystal the dream got an Assessed Have no time to think about frivolous things. I say maybe somebody like my music Maybe maybe they're like my music and then maybe they're like me as a person Maybe they won't Because you have to stay in that I don't know fucking shit I I'm only calculated in the things that I do. I'm not calculated in nothing else I can't determine what a person goes say when they look at me. I can determine that all I can do is be me That's all I can do I when somebody walks up and they see me I don't know what I am to be honest Like the niggas say I say whatever I could give a fuck less of what your first opinion or first look at me is Because it's probably most likely don't be some bullshit anyway And if you don't like it don't be around nothing you know Like if you feel like you need to alter and fix it and it needs to be led somewhere Who are you is that your destiny to guide people then you need to get in that type of field and start guiding people in that type of shit you know Reach out reach somebody And from now on I do my own podcast.
I do my own shit What do I need somebody else for You know for what? For what so you can say you're just a dream chaser and that's all they are dreams You know, I love myself I really do And every day every day is a struggle for me to get up Every day is a struggle for me to get up and keep pushing and saying I'm gonna do this music shit I'm gonna do this shit and I'm gonna do that shit However you feel that's up to you. It's not up to me. Well, finally, okay great I know what I'm saying for me though.
I can't say this for you. I'm not saying it for you I'm not saying it for you. I'm not saying it for you. You're not saying nothing you ain't never saying before though You acting like your opinion has changed The only thing I'm good for is And we have can that's what I'm good for.
That's what I'm good for. That's what's making the money You know what I'm saying? But as I stand speaking for myself as I see you to 6 9 Which is the yin and the yang as I see that as I see that see when you love yourself people can't accept it It can be a rant but it's a rant for me. It's not a rant for you.
It's not a rant for you It's not a rant for you, but your bother your bother your bother your bother your bother your bother your bother Body, that's what you should say. That's what you can't say. Okay cool cool cool cool accepted It's accepted see you can't accept me accepting it your bother body It is cool I accept it accept it be you keep saying what you're saying You want me to hush all that can hear you because I'm not talking to you no more You want me to talk to you you want to you want to be fucking to you want to be fucking to now you want to hear me Okay, I'm talking to the podcast. I'll talk into the podcast Well, you listen, but you want to talk to me.
Oh, yeah, too bad However, you feel about it call it dumb call it ignorant. I accept you say it good Keep feeling that way keep thinking that way keep saying keep that opinion. I accept you. That's what they don't like You can say it if you that's what you still get to move on with your life I even if I shoot I finna treat what you I'm gonna do not keep that same fucking energy That's all I'm saying.
I'm not switching up my energy I'm not switching it up for nobody and no type of way that you own I and I will be it's not nothing hard to do Like and that's what people want like you can't make it on your own. You can't survival on you can't okay Yes, you need people in a sense, you know I'm saying but it doesn't mean that my life ends because one person is like I can disappear or however The fuck they want to do it like let them do it. Let them do it. Let them but live you live upside Live yourself outside people here live yourself I don't live me.
I don't care how you feel about it. I'm not bothered by it. It's not working out for you It's not I'm working out for me. I'm working out for me.
I don't even know about you else around me doesn't work out I'm working out for me. I'm working out for me. Okay. Well, like I said when you say things that people don't like and you get to speak And how you feel it bother them trying to tell you it gets to them and hits that pit of the stomach and they can't understand You're so bother by it And you know what I'm saying and that's how it goes.
You're right about that when and when you think you have genuine help You know do it things and you thought everything was okay And maybe if you were more informed about the situation you wouldn't know that person felt their way But like it's a lack of communication and when another person is trying to communicate a person only wants to hear them When it's nice and sweet and coming at them in a good way They don't want to hear it when it's coming from a strong place. They don't want to hear they want to be like well Yeah, I'm sure not me. That's not me. It's never gonna be me I mean at least I got somebody to talk to at least somebody's gonna listen They can't talk back but they'll be listening You know what I'm saying and I got that and I'll have that because I don't never even take over this shit like that And the last time I was doing that shit all the time I was drunk as a motherfucker Now I'm not drunk see now.
I'm not drunk and my face is like well wait a minute. Hold on. She's still barking Roo-roo talk off email dog straight up still barking still barking. I'm not gonna stop.
I'm a bike don't stop My bike don't stop. I'm a dog to roof roof roof straight up. I'm that bitch. You know what I said Okay, thank you.
I appreciate it So anyways like I'm saying be your true self stay true to you. That's all I'm saying I understand nothing else about shit else about nobody all I'm saying as a person be you stay being you That's dream if you got tears cry for you. Don't cry for nobody else. Don't give that to nobody else Don't just for you.
You know what I'm saying because humans are humans Just what they are and sometimes they're not ready for certain energy that certain things that's happening So you have to let them be you have to let that go you know what I'm saying and that's where to be you know I'm saying and ain't no need for me to sit up here pretend like oh shit. Oh oh Oh, yeah, you booty shaking. That's all my mind. That's all my mind is I got a booty shake to sell albums I was trying to sell albums who told you all was trying to sell albums who told you that?
Who told you you're thinking though. You're not asking you thought it's a thought you don't know right? But you didn't know that's a fact you did it. No you did it.
No you did it. No you still don't know yet Yes, yes, yes, you still don't know but let me talk about conversations with people that didn't want to have conversations with me So anyway, it's like I said, I'm back over here y'all could go look at my shit that I feel whatever I'm doing me and this and I'm not giving a fuck about that You know what I'm saying it is what it is, you know I'm saying and most likely this will probably be the last podcast that we make because you know what I'm saying is y'all Cuz seeing this shit really ain't even cute, you know what I'm saying I'm gonna just say that shit because I already know how I already know my thoughts and stuff like that about shit And then I'm already knowing I'm peeping game and I keep peeping his game And if I keep peeping the game and I keep seeing the game why I keep letting the game happen So I gotta get on stay on my shit stay on my feet and stop, you know Taking these little ass power naps and shit because taking these little power now got motherfucker speaking I want to do booty shakes So with that being said, you know, I'm in this on an early note I think y'all for listening and shit like that and maybe maybe not you would see me in the future with my music Hopefully I won't be booty shaking and you know what I'm saying? I'll progress and have some things going so maybe you're here. I'll produce for somebody if not a will I Tried nobody is not from lack of trying.
You may be from lack of rejection, but I didn't like to try it. I tell you that but Thank y'all appreciate y'all for the two sits it does give us two cents So our two sits for your two sits man the conversation with my new bring them most likely no more