The Closer You Look The Less You See

Over the years I have learned various things about myself, one of those being that I am a "why" person. Even on rare occasion I love to ask the question "how" in order to better understand the process of how a situation began in one place and has progressed its way into another. Recently, I have come to the realization that it  isn't my job to understand how every minute detail comes together. If I had the ability to understand the big picture all the time, I would probably drive myself crazy. Trust in God and yourself is built in navigating the unknown while confidence in your ability to make it through the difficult moments develops as you overcome all the challenges in life that seem to want take you out from under your feet. Growth by no means is linear.  At times it is hard for me to recognize when I have grown in a particular area because it doesn't match the story I have created for myself in my mind; to me the best moments are when I am finally able to see that I am living out a season that turned better than I originally imagined it to be. Some days I feel like I'm crushing it to only be humbled in the next moment. Life is really about embracing the highs and the lows and finding appreciation in both while also showing gratitude for the seasons when you are in that sweet middle. I am just grateful that my life is not my own and that God has taken care of me every single step along the way. I am thankful for the people who have supported me and will continue to make space for more new things to come.